Silent pain and memories of friendship

I am fine don't tell me I need help or to get advice to help with my pain it happens now in then I will write about what I want it's Therapy

Dead silence in

the night is all I hear.

Shards of glass fall

from my pain.

Broken accordion strings

of music never to sing

upon this aching Heart.

Trembling wind currents

play silent beauty with

the wind.

Dry your river of flowing

tears this shade of gray

will turn to colors so beautiful.

The sadness wants to

get out I can't bottle

up my hurt so crying helps.

Missing you still my

friend I hope it will get

less painful being without a sister.

The pain is like  broken

shards of glass on my Heart.

Could I look up and see

a twinkling star and see your face

Raina.

The three Musketeers the

motley crew us three felt

we could be on top of

the world with no worries.

We were giggles and

an Instrument of laughter

and Jokes.

Echoes of friendship are

in a glass globe of memories

of this silent pain I feel.

One day I will think

of the memories and you

Rania and I won't hurt  and cry.

Dedicating this to Rania my

sister and best friend will always remember

the good times we had 

Copyright Kindred poet / Benita Staebell McCartney

Author's Note

Written July 25 2014 finished at 2:24am

I am fine don't tell me I need help or to get
advice to help with my pain it happens now in then I will write about what
I want happy sad what I want I been stressed so it is my Therapy to write.


Thinking about Rania my
childhood friend and sister again

I hope you like tell me what you think.

This is my photo BTW In the picture I am in the orange neon suite with while shirt then my friend and sister Sonya next my friend and sister Rania my she rest in peace then that is my friend Chris behind Sonya being a goof he is also Rania's brother we are having fun at the Holiday Inn hotel I had lot of my birthdays there this was in Cedar rapids Iowa were I was born and Chris and I some times would have our birthday on mine his is the 28 of march mine is the 27 of march those were good times I miss them we love you Rania

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

I'll just start by saying I know just what you mean about not wanting the comments and all that...I've lost a Dad (on March 26) and a dear friend way before their time, but you can't even talk about them positively without making people feel bad, then they feel obligated to say something supportive, so I hear you all the way on that...

Still I have to comment on the poem itself and tell you that the sense of absence is deep and poignant and palpable...as mentioned above, I relate, and the images you used to convey that feeling are perfect, especially the musical imagery and shards of glass...a most beautiful tribute...well done Benita, and well written of course.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

I am sorry to hear that a day before my birthday march 27th I've been trying to get reviews back my legs have been Achy and hurting from my Adventure at my family reunion Aug. 3 I walked down 477 stairs then went back up them this was to see the water falls at Cloudland canyon in Georgia so beautiful but my legs been healing that's why I have not said much I been sluggish LOL...
Thank you for your kind review and comments. I really appreciate it. Glad you enjoyed the read.
I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[kublakhan27]

Always a pleasure Benita...I'm sorry to hear about your leg pain but I'm glad you enjoyed the time...I love waterfalls, and may actually be going on a hike to see one myself next week...I'm sure I'll have the same leg issues when I'm done haha

I know just how you feel about those anniversaries, they always hurt...thankfully you have poetry which is the best therapy there is...blessings to you as well and I wish you all the best :)

[Matching Socks]

Words are indeed our therapy my friend. This is why many of us write.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
Thank you for your Comments glad you liked it. family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[just Penny]

This is a lovely tribute and reminisce to someone dearly loved. I have lost a brother so I know something of how it feels. I think the lines
"Echoes of friendship are
in a glass globe of memories
of this silent pain I feel"
describe perfectly how it's ever present but defies being defined. I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for putting into words what I cannot. Penny

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your Comments glad you liked it.I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Kelly Scheppers]

It will always be our therapy, Benita, to write whatever we are feeling. But sometimes, there are moments when the words just won't come, for the heart is simply too heavy.

Bless you for your loving heart, and for sharing such a beautiful, profound memory in your life!

My best,
Kelly

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your Comments glad you liked it.I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Mari K]

This is a very deep poem that expresses pain in a beautiful way. The love and sadness you feel is palpable. Really good write.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
Thank you for your Comments glad you liked it. family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Rene Salinas]

There is no way to replace the missing. All the experienced lived and shred but as I read through I aslo felt that her "image" had been lifted that maybe by you offering this from the honest part of your hear you would creat a stream whereby the missing one might get to know how you feel. Sure call me an idealist but if only to pretend that life as known does not stop becuase the encasing has been lost and that the afterwards moment is not closed to listening maybe the relationship continues in thought. And what better way to celebrate than when you share that Echoes of friendship are,
in a glass globe of memories,of this silent pain I feel.

Beatifully intimate.

Thankyou Benita

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your kind review and comments. I really appreciate it. Glad you enjoyed the read. read moreThank you for your kind review and comments. I really appreciate it. Glad you enjoyed the read.
I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Fran Marie]

a profound write and beautiful dedication....

nicely presented and deeply expressed...

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your kind review and comments. I really appreciate it. I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. I was trying to put beauty with the sadness as well. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Bluefire]

"Trembling wind currents
play silent beauty with
the wind."

"Dry your river of flowing
tears this shade of gray
will turn to colors so beautiful."

"We were giggles and
an Instrument of laughter
and Jokes."
~*~
Very dark and beautiful. It brings some strange memories to my mind.
Well done. ^^

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you for your kind review and comments. I really appreciate it. I was hurting when I wrote this and it
helped to let it all go it is always hard when the Anniversary of a very close friend that is like a
family member I was very Emotional July 25th and after the month went by I calmed down the 26th and 27th of July so I am better. Yes we were a funny bunch some Hilarious memories that would make you cry you'd laugh so hard. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet

[Bluefire]

You're welcome, I'm glad all's better now. ^^

[jacob erin-cilberto]

we write the pain out...that is what poets do...it is our therapy.

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Very true my friend. thank you for your kind
review and comments. I really appreciate it. blessings. Benita/ Kindred poet