Beasts in the Forest

I'm in limbo, between university and the real world.

In this forest

There are no paths.

In the thick, dark growth

Monsters lurk.

I see them pacing,

Blocking my way.

Where I am

I have weapons.

Bait

To entice,

The beasts would come forth

And bow at my feet.

I would love and cherish.

It would be home.

But too soon the dream would end,

And the bait would vanish.

The beasts would turn on me again.

I would struggle to survive

on love alone.

Where I am

I have a dagger.

My knowledge to help

To overcome the my growling future.

I must pick my battle.

I need to know my strength.

And weakness.

I need to pick:

Warrior

Or Ninja.

Ninja avoidance will not suffice

My nightmares will still be there,

Should I wish to take a different path.

To be a warrior,

Raises questions of moves.

Which attack should I use?

On which animal?

From where I am,

Where do I want to be?

My voices warn to pick the best

But which is best,

When I do not know my enemies,

If I can beat them...?

I want to explore my territory,

Know myself,

Learn my capability.

The question:

Do I know already?

I am standing in my forest.

Lost and afraid.

Which way is forward?