Internal Reaction

Internal Reaction

A Poem by GingerPocky
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My experience being bullied and how the school tells students to contain themselves and tell a teacher rather than stand up for themselves

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"You're so fat. Oh my god gross, do you own a mirror? You're ugly ginger. Kill yourself. Why is your skin so white? Satanist. Evil. Hideous. Worthless. Why were you born? Freak. Die."

Thank you for your kind words today
What would I do without them circulating through my brain?
I'll simply smile and walk away
Trying to hide my internal pain

What's it they say about sticks and stones?
I think I'd rather have you break my bones
Because bones can heal
Words leave imprints in my mind
One of these days you may find
You don't know how bad you make me feel

But I can't cry because it makes me feel weak
I'm supposed to ignore, so I don't dare speak
I'll hold it in, the pain inside
I smile and I'm okay on the outside

But my internal reaction
That's a different story
Is it worth your satisfaction?
That I'm dying slowly
Tick tick boom
There's no room to be optimistic
My arm hurts now that I've given in
I am so pathetic
But it all builds up and there's no other way
Internal reaction

Your words fuel
My little friend that's with me
You are so cruel
I already know I'm ugly
So could you stop now
I already hate myself
Your work is done go somewhere else
I might just kill myself tonight
If I have to face another fight
With just me, myself, and I
I already want to die

Why don't you ever shut up?
I've heard it all before there's nothing else that you can call me
I'll just give up
But every time I try someone always stops me

And I can't cry
I can't die
So I guess I'll lie
I promise I'm okay
Could you just go away?
I promise I'll eat today
I'll laugh and I'll get better
On the outside I will smile forever

But my internal reaction
That's a different story
Is it worth your satisfaction?
That I'm dying slowly
Tick tick boom
There's no room to be optimistic 
My arm hurts now that I've given in
I am so pathetic 
But it all builds up and there's no other way
Internal reaction

© 2015 GingerPocky


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I've never been bullied "properly" but I can certainly feel it when someone is judging me and not making friends with me because they think I'm not good enough for them. Please don't die. Live on. There are other things out there worth living for. You've got me as a friend.

~Kurayami

Posted 9 Years Ago


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GingerPocky

8 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)



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I've never been bullied "properly" but I can certainly feel it when someone is judging me and not making friends with me because they think I'm not good enough for them. Please don't die. Live on. There are other things out there worth living for. You've got me as a friend.

~Kurayami

Posted 9 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

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GingerPocky

8 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)

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Added on August 3, 2014
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GingerPocky
GingerPocky

West Jordan, UT



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I'm a 17 year old ginger girl who enjoys writing poems and stories. I'm also very lazy about writing and take forever to write something I feel is worth keeping, so I most likely won't be posting new .. more..

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