Halfway To Heaven

Halfway To Heaven

A Poem by Gee
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A mother and son, age and illness...13/10/18...just sitting in silence and got to thinking about mum, so have put this out for a read :))

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For many years now this her place,
a tightrope walked unsteadily between life and death.
Stooped by age she sees no way forward
living ever in the now,
a routine existence from which she escapes only ever briefly,
leafed pages revealing what might have been
had she not .....
2 failed marriages, 7 kids, many jobs,
many more lonely nights,
respite only when her brood briefly fostered.
On good days her mind, wit, has her tongue running humorous rings around us,
on bad, she stumbles, trips on words, forgets,
"What was I saying.."
We drink tea, I get the latest death count,
"He/she was only.... " and then an age applied.
At her lowest, when most ill
I asked what gives her the strength to carry on,
if she was afraid of dying, she laughed.
"I'm not afraid of death, I fear only what I'll miss when dead,
I'm to nosy to die"
And so she carries on,
precariously balanced,
halfway to heaven,
with me prepared,
stood down,
prepared,
stood down,
but never really ready.....















© 2018 Gee



Author's Note

Gee
A bit disjointed but hopefully makes sense.

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What a moving poem. About life and living and want to rest also from it all. Touching and emotional as well as witty.

Posted 3 Weeks Ago


Gee

3 Weeks Ago

Thanks Dawn, is actually me and my old mum :))
I like this. God don't want me yet. Every morning I wake up. "God, I'm still alive" I whisper... Guess I'm not ready for your kingdom, just yet.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Gee

3 Months Ago

Life in the ol' dog yet, eh?
Thanks again Arthur
Oh, this is so tender, clever and humorous at the same time.. I love the part about the latest death count (reminded me a bit of Monty Python), and then about her being too nosy to die! That’s so cute! I love it!

Posted 5 Months Ago


Gee

5 Months Ago

I'm glad you enjoyed. Thank you
I relate to this write very much. My mum is in a nursing home and is neither here, not there. She is an inbetweener. Her good days are few and many are upsetting, and I are wonder as does the rest of our family how she manages to keep going. It is heartbreaking, she is a shell of her former vibrant self. When her time comes, we won't be ready. We will never be ready. Your poem brought her right back into my sitting room this evening. A poignant write.

Posted 6 Months Ago


Gee

6 Months Ago

Good morning Christine. It is so, so sad to see the gradual decline of both the health and mental aw.. read more
I kinda can relate to this here and there. I am glad I had a chance to read this. This is so deep and personal it feels like. Awesome

Posted 9 Months Ago


Gee

9 Months Ago

Very personal but often this type of writing, because of this, is the easiest to pen. Thank you fir.. read more
We are such frail creatures in the grand scheme of things; but, I'm to nosy to die" are the words that stay with me as I read this. They show that the human spirit, the zest for discovery, is the drive that will one day take us to the stars.

Beccy.

PS. Merry Christmas to you and yours.

Posted 10 Months Ago


Gee

10 Months Ago

Thank you Beccy
This is brilliant! I love the realistic terms, but each one freshly stated. There are many poems posted here about this topic, but this is one of the best & most original to me. The 3rd stanza is so true-to-life, could be any older person doing this! And this little snippet: "I'm to nosy to die" -- perfect reveal! I love the title & I feel the title, plus I like the way you used it in last stanza (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 10 Months Ago


Gee

10 Months Ago

Thank you. This is as true to life as it gets having had these conversations many a time on my twice.. read more
barleygirl

10 Months Ago

This poem makes me feel as if I know your mum! *smile*
Gee

10 Months Ago

You’d love her as she would you. Thank you
Beautiful we are all half way really from the day we born some go sooner than others I've lost both parents all my aunties uncles bar one a sister a good g f and grandparents and age is to be embraced not feared if we age it means we not dead yet sorry you have to see her she and get sick it is heartbreaking I know you cherish her I can tell go make some memories with her take lots of pics xx. Good poem very good

Posted 1 Year Ago


Gee

1 Year Ago

Thank you kindly J.
a sensitive and sharply well described work Gee, You give us a personal account of watching your mother's aging process and the way in which this affects others.

Posted 1 Year Ago


Gee

1 Year Ago

Cheers John, I think she'll outlive us all

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