So Deep

I am so deep into you
to the point of near decay
I care nothing for my own sanity
just to lie in your arms
no matter the tiny deaths
each moment causes me
I am haunted by your absence
delusional in this love
remnants of what could be
but will never be
my heart broken and bleeding
no longer beating without pain
no morsels touch these lips
'til you return to me
and should I die waiting
I will take the memory
of us with me
for eternity

In that hell I will still wait
delighting in the eternal pain
of a love I thought I knew
this gnashing of stone against skin
bears no witness to you
it was never about you
so obsessed was I
that even these fiery flames
cannot ease this loss
I would just as soon burn
than face the bond
I thought we had formed
trifling as it is
what changes us is me
I have fallen so hard, so deep
I want whatever I can get
regardless of the consequences

And now it is time to pay the price
for a year of unbridled passion
I let you in too deep
went in too deeply
my feet are soaked
from the bloody water I tread
I've become like the women
I despise
waiting, longing, needing you
your schedule rarely matching mine
And so I live a million lies for you
will die a million deaths for you
bear all the pain and anguish
for you
always for you

Reviews

[SkinlessFrank]

The confessions here, written in such pure and powerful prose, we absorb them easily, not realizing until it's too late that it hurts to breathe this in, for it brings to mind our own follies in love.

[Tate Morgan]

Oh how we torture ourselves and seek out our own approval for it.Sad but I too have known this well

As now she has gone away
I miss the old sweet pain
Sometimes when night whistles in
the wind plays loves refrain

[Mary Chalmer]

Lovely write, great poem.

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

my feet are soaked
from the bloody water I tread
I've become like the women
I despise
waiting, longing, needing you
your schedule rarely matching mine
And so I live a million lies for you
will die a million deaths for you
bear all the pain and anguish
for you
always for you

OMG .... RARELY DO i FOUND SUCH A BEAUTIFUL BLEEDING POETRY ... you poetry here are written with blood and tears , just as it should be ... I was there , of course , most poets did , we just need to be so happy , we have that way in words to put the pain on the paper , or the screen .... I am sure its only so little of what you felt, the pain is unbearable , sometimes , especially at nights ... Yossi

[Seshat Nidaba]

This was great, a primal confessional dish.

[Emm'here]

This is incredible. I love this. I love the idea and concept within. You always must be careful with love, for it can blossom or shatter. Amazing.

[Sleeping Maiden]

Wow. Breath taking. The love is extremely pure... oh how love can be so consuming. The pain is shattering. But I do love this piece! You write about love so well. The ache..the torture of being away from a loved one... ohh it's just really good to read. Very relatable.

[Elisa Laura]

It is pure love, if you can give yourself for another person... dedicated, and....

Excellent Exquisite!

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Oh I love this sooo much..Lori..this is a love poem of epic proportions..the anguish of pain of a love that is destructive..but utterly consuming...written with a classic feel..this is a fave

[Chris G. Vaillancourt]

Excellent poem and write , pleasure to read