Moving On

No matter what I do, I cant seem to move on. You left me almost 6 months ago and yet I can't seem to move on. I've tried, but none of them are good. When we kissed, it felt like something in my heart clicked into place. My head has moved on but my heart hasn't. No matter what I do I can't get over you. I want to cut myself every time I think about you. You were the best thing to happen to me. You were my whole world. I would have done anything to keep you. I have so many things to tell you but you already moved on. 

I used to tell him:

"You stayed behind to help me when everyone else had already left."

But now I guess he left me too.

My heart holds on to hopeless hopes.

"Its not possible to make that many promises and not mean any of them. Not all of the promises were lies."

"He looked you straight in the eyes and said he loved you. He cant have lied."

But my mind has accepted that he's not coming back.

I can't convince my heart.

I still love you. From the bottom of my heart. Every promise I made I meant it.

Please come back to me.

You were all I had to keep me afloat in the ocean.

I can't last in this sea any longer.