A Million Faces

A Million Faces  

You know lately I really have been thinking a lot on how I’m viewed. Sometimes I wake up at night wondering who I am. Staring out an empty window waiting for an answer. I just don’t know anymore. It's like the more time I spend around my friends the more I lose myself. It's like people’s personality. “You try so hard to be someone you forget who you are”. I really like this quote. I guess it just speaks to me. Always feeding my friends this alter egos I made up I’m like a guy with a million faces. It’s kind of weird having friends who think they know you, but they really don't know you at all. Hell i don't even know myself.  Some say talking to yourself is weird, some think it's crazy, I think it is one of the best reliefs you can have. I see talking to myself as a great escape from the world. At times it's fun just having a conversation with someone and be just telling them off in your head and they don't even know it. Or just going into a daze stopping time and totally go somewhere else. Oh yeah...I can do that. (sigh) Just writing this my mind is scrambled.

I see myself as a loner and I know others see me as that too,but i'm fine with it. My mom always said be a leader don't follow the crowd. I didn’t feel like being a leader nor did I want to follow people, so I just became a loner really.

I don't know who I will be tomorrow, or the next day, or the day after that, but I do know one thing i will not be the same as today. My advice stay away from me because I might just become you.