Why do I write?

Dead Poetry

I wear the invisible cloak
walking alone in a crowd

Hearing cries among laughter
listening to the whispers that slaughter

Immersed in darkness beneath the sun
with a life that has been anything but fun

I am a man of regrets
with a memory that never forgets

Locking the emotions within my heart with a key

So that nobody can see

Rather than live a life of a lie
I would rather bury myself and die

Where am I going?
Without any knowing

Thinking

Am I wrong?
To think that I am strong
Am I cursed?

Infecting everyone who are blessed

A bottle full of sorrow and pain, I fill

the only thing that keeps me going is my sheer will

Seeking an opportunity to grieve unalone

A melody that will change my tone

Why do I write?
Is it because I couldn't fight?

Or

Is this how I show my might?

© 2015 Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam

Author's Note

'Dead Poetry' is a term which I've coined by myself. It is the kind of poetry written by a person who has zero desire to exist in this world, yet find something that keeps him going till the very end, which he can't comprehend.

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Reviews

[Susanna F]

These are wonderful questions that dig at the heart, not just of writing, but of existence. I ask myself every day what the point of life is. Am I only carrying on because others need me and force me to continue? Or is there some other compulsion? You mention locking up your emotions and infecting the blessed, but writing is unlocking them, not living the life of a lie anymore - and maybe people need to be reminded that there is more to life than their moments of pleasure, bigger questions that need answered before the world can get better. This is a great poem that really made me think - and feel.

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Thanks for your in depth review susanna:)I happy that my writings have actually touched you and made you think:) happy happy:)

[Tionge Rosalie Johnson]

"Am I wrong?
To think that I am strong?"

That was a powerful line for me, as I often wonder what the point of living means to me, and if being strong is actually good for me. This is especially true as a women, I often feel like its negative to be a strong female because of the awful connotations that come with it sometimes (being seen as too intimidating for instance). Like, somehow as a female writer I'm supposed to always be seen as someone whose always supposed to be soft and meek, but in reality that is just not my personality. This was a great concept to talk about, for as I writer I also feel like writing gives me a great purpose, and gives me permission to be a strong female, and a proud one at that.

[Amulya Bhardwaj]

MASTERPIECE!!!! brilliant work sir!!! many of us would relate to it... surely one of my favourites!!!

[Amulya Bhardwaj]

MASTERPIECE!!!! brilliant work sir!!! many of us would relate to it... surely one of my favourites!!!

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Thanks amulya:)

[buterfligirl]

Very interesting poem. I like the wording you use as well as the stylistic choices on the structure.

There were a couple of lines that weren't uppercase at the beginning. Not that it's wrong to do so, it just felt a little weird to me when most of the lines were capitalized. Still, that might have been a stylistic choice, so I'm not saying you have to change it or anything.

Also, the line "Without any knowing" is a little weird. I don't have any particular suggestion on what would make it flow better, but it's your choice on what you want to do.

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

thank you for your kind suggestions, glad my dead poetry kept you interested... I'll surely try if i can find a proper replacement to the suggestions which you have mentioned.

[Sophy Freebirds]

Ohhh my!! This just stole my breath away... I was just chewing my nails gazing at the screen thinking what to write to compliment you."Dead poetry"-hell yeah... i love that term and i am a dead poet :p... Writing is the only thing that keeps me moving on..Thousands of emotions flow across this poem.The despondency,the gnawing need to shut off from the world,self inflicted solitude,demons in head!! All of them are mentioned in this splendidly dark piece of poetry.We don't wtite to be recognised but its kinda purgatory for me atleast. The rhetorical questions asked here just emphasize the emotions here. :) *keep writing*

~Sophy

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

thanks for deeply analyzing my write up... glad that i'm not the only 'dead poet' out there :P
read morethanks for deeply analyzing my write up... glad that i'm not the only 'dead poet' out there :P
Glad you liked it sophy:)

[TheOne&Only]

With your note, "...finding something that keeps him going till the very end, which he cant comprehend.", does he know what keeps him going?

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

He does not know what keeps him going... And not knowing what is it, is exactly what that keeps him going... Are u able to understand?

[TheOne&Only]

Yes I do. I understand completely.

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Glad You are:)

[Confuser]

'Dead Poetry' - wow Jerald, I love it and your poem as well. It kind of crept up on me slowly with every line, which I enjoyed thoroughly. I am a man of regrets with a memory that never forgets ....before that I didn't know what to exspect and was intrigued...your descriptions are wonderful. You really let your honesty come through...Rather than live a life of a lie, I would rather bury myself and die - Great line, but I loved the entire poem. Thank you so much and Keep writing. You surprise me, good surprises! Dale

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Thanks so much dale:) glad my 'dead poetry' is actually alive:) quite ironical i must say:)

[Confuser]

I love the phase you have created. Clever. Dale

[The Bandit Writer]

I love this poem. It shows the inner depth of what your feeling and I believe thats what writting is really about. Good job, keep the poems coming.

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Thank you so so much.... i'll keep the poem coming and you keep reading them... thanks for the support big time:)

[Mary Bradley]

Well said 'dead poetry' ... but the spirit in there is tangible ! Quite motivating piece I think ...

[Jerald Infant Jeyarethinam]

Ha ha:) Thank you:P Very much Mary:)