No expectations - I didn't want to fight version

This is another version to my "No expectation" story , a dear fried here was touched by my words and decided to add her words to it, made it her version too

No expectations right now, I didn't want to fight you

 

9:58am, at my desk  

Yes I know what you mean, but, it will sound not real and probably fake but honestly, I really don't have a frame of the woman I expect you to be, 

I teased you, called you sexy and more,only because I wanted it that special moment, but believe me when I say, 

I don't have an Agenda for you, for the both of us…

 

It’s not like I told myself: 

I want her to listen, be, entertain, be smart, be silly,

happy, be fun, for me, with me

I was looking for you for years…

 

... I need you around me when I need,

I need you to comfort, relieve,

make me smile, make me cry,

I want you to change; I want you to change me,

make me better, take the animal out,

take the beast, fulfil my sexual desires,

manage your sexuality, personality,

change you, for good, for bad, forever, 

 

I never said I want this to lead to change in me,

in you, touch the little child inside,

bring the mature girl out, make her take pills,

make her hate her parents, force her love herself,

her body her soul, force her to love my body,

make her love me, need me, want me,

be for me, be her, be US, be together, give space,

How much space do you need…

 

Here comes our first fight, right? 

 

We’ve both been there before, we got closer,

got hurt, we searched for the right amount of comfort,

wanted to hate each other, miss, respect, humiliate,

searched for the other’s soul, we searched  for peace,

still do,  we need more, we need to say goodbye,

we know how it will hurt right?

 

So, no, I really don't have an Agenda,

much more simple right now, maybe I’m older, wiser,

who knows. I want in the limited time we have,

to get to know you, maybe find moments when

our parallel worlds might meet to comfort us

or maybe not. 
 

I should get back to my coffee, it got cold

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

I read the first version but i think it is better in this format. There are still bits that i feel dont read well and seem contradictory! For example - 'change you, for good, for bad,' ' make her take pills, make her hate her parents'
Perhaps it is a true reflection of how your thoughts get confused when you are angry!
So, well done, Alan

[Harmony Lee]

This piece I think reveals a tenet of your ability to be so articulate and thoughtful even when faced with stressful or otherwise emotional situations. I love the juxtaposition between not having an agenda yet describing so many desires that would seem to constitute an agenda. I also love the line "for good, for bad, forever".

[Unforgettable1230]

Great Read! I enjoyed this. Thank you for sharing.

[Christine Ann Wedo]

I enjoyed reading this piece and could relate to all of the feelings expressed in your work. I love the ending as the coffee got cold...A nice flow as well

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

this is really a beautiful and complex piece I like your style and the way the words flow :)

[TeArra Beautiful]

Wow, nice poem. Captivating!

[Katt Knipp]

i love the flow of it and the reality of some people work and manage together. so many ways to make things works with different people just one way broken down.

[Farmgirl]

I enjoyed this
Reminded me of a lot of things I could relate to and I dint think it was contradictory at all yu said what you had to say and you rant it stayed straight direct forward outspoken and realistic abut how deep things get in an relationship

Truly epic piece !

Saving to library

[Tessa Melendez]

It's a good piece. I like the sort of thoughtful flow of it and how you work in little touches of sweetness. I mean- it may not be sweetness, but that's what I felt it was. I haven't read the first one, but I think this one is definitely good.

[Diane]

It was a good read from start to finish.

[Laleetwin]

You've nailed that feeling that has no name. Well done!

[Ana Del]

I agree with you. As simple as that.