The Pill

Xanax to help me with my dying mind

Restoril to help me close my eyes and obliterate my thoughts and wake a new

Xanax, stop giving me these racing thoughts that run wild in my mind uncontrollably and confused

Pestoril, you're the one that changes my insomnia to the dreams I've been longing for when you finally make me shut down in the night

Xanax, please help me forget but don't destroy my thoughts

Pestoril, please help me shut them down again but please make me wake again

Xanax, I don't wanna forget the feeling of...

Pastoril, please I don't want you to lock me up deep inside

Xanax and Pastoril, Don't make me forget, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow

But dear god, I really wanna let it go!

Come with me again as we go back to bed, I don't wanna sleep alone

Xanax, Pastoril you hid my struggle but couldn't hide my emptiness

You let it show

Looking at my reflection to see what you wrought

Nothing but ugliness and the darkest shades under my eyes

Shades of the very darkness I have fought

My reflection holds nothing but lies

The lies that I have tried to conceal by using you

But both of you brought me nothing but more pain

messing up my mentality to make me look insane

I can't really hold on to me

I wonder whats wrong with me?

You drowned my well to sore

Deep down the water I inundate to its very core

Only here in the darkness you have besieged me is where I know myself

I'll never be free unless I break it by letting go of me

So please

Let go of me...

Shadows and voices reappeared to me as soon as I gave up on you

My friends, please I need you again

Having you is better than to be alone

I had to wait until the very end when I had to fall again

Once again among the ashes

Once again I must ask you

Why can't I hold on to me

Whats wrong with me?

Xanax, Restoril please help me

Xanax, Restoril stay away from me

Reviews

[Abhishek Asthana]

extremely nice concept to write something about,,,
really well done joey,,, this poem has imparted a nice message to the society... awesome work

[Joey Nizz]

Thanks Abhishek, Im glad that you think so! :)

[Stacy Purvis]

Reading this, a parable came to mind: He who chases two rabbits catches neither...it can only bring suffering.

[Joey Nizz]

Well said, what a wise parable, thank you for sharing :)

[SleeplessVolcano]

And another thought...although any substance abuse is regrettable, often a drug at the right time could be a life-saver......

[Joey Nizz]

You are right, only at the right time, but some people either get carried away or just forget about their benefits and just wanna use it for their amusement which is sad.

[SleeplessVolcano]

I think you've painted an accurate picture of the conflict legal drugs often bring about. I do, however, feel that you could have conveyed the same message with less words.....

[Joey Nizz]

I guess I got carried away with the writing.
Im glad to know that you think so anyways, I appreciate it :)

[KyLaQz]

Never battled drug addiction but I think this poem gave me a look of what it might be like. Second poem I have read and 2nd one to make me think, really starting to enjoy poems.

-KyLaQz

[Joey Nizz]

I'm glad that you haven't been addicted to drugs, drugs can destroy a person instead of helping them, the mind plays but we have to look the other way and be our selves instead of the change that the drug enforces on us.

Thank you for your review :)

[Sinbulvinter]

I never abused medications, drugs, or narcotics, but I was heavily medicated all through my teen years and into my early twenties with a number of different pills. These two being two of them.
I can relate to this, not in the way of drug abuse, but in the way of "medicine." Doctors made me take these pills, get my body addicted to them, telling me I was sick and only these medications would make me better - but they only made me worse.
I'd battle back and forth, trying to take myself off them, then needing them back, then trying to take myself off them, they destoryed much of my younger years and it wasn't until I finally took myself off these f****n' pills that I started being a normal person, and able to function correctly.

Good work on this piece.

[Joey Nizz]

Drugs can sure have a major effect on somebody, even if you wanna stop and you force your self and you succeed, an inner voice will tell you that you need them again.
I myself was never into drugs but I wrote this because I know would they feel, the people who use the drugs just to keep them selves in check, when there are other ways other than this, this abuse that will tear you apart.

Thank you for your time and you review. :)

[Sinbulvinter]

That's very true. I was lucky that my addiction to medication was only physical and caused by doctors, I've known a lot of people who have abused drugs and used them to escape from their suffering in life. It made me very sad to see them battle within themselves, a part of their mind wanting to be free of the drug while another part needing that release. I knew the feeling, since I was on medication for a while and struggled with non-drug related addictions, and addictions are a very hard thing to over come - a part of you will always want to go back to the pill, bottle, razor, pipe, or whatever addiction. You protrayed this very well just based off empathy and not personal experence. It actually impresses me a lot that you are able to mirror these thoughts just by seeing and feeling what other people felt while going through this.

And your welcome.

[Joey Nizz]

I too feel very sad for the people who abuse drugs or got suicide thoughts by cutting or drowning them selves in alcohol or whatever people use these days to get over something or to make them selves good again and not realizing that they are only making it worse.
I tried to help those people before and I was happy that I actually got through to some but sad that I couldn't to others, I lose a very close friend because of this years back, I used to blame myself but I dunno, I did what I could but again I dunno..
And yes sometimes its good to understand someone even if you dont know them just to know what they are going through, because sometimes they have no one to be there for them, why not us? even if we are strangers to them.

[heartspeaks]

wow...you either are a pharmacist or love chemistry a lot...Crazy yet wonderful idea to use drugs in a poem to express the degree of pain they supress... Well done... Well as they say inspiration can come from anywhere... Claps*****

'll never be free unless I break it by letting go of me

My friends, please I need you again
Having you is better than to be alone

It's a powerful , deep and emotional write...
#salute

[Joey Nizz]

Would you be surprised if I told you that I was neither? :p

Yes I agree, insperation does come from anywhere as long as you accept it to create it self inside of your mind.

I'm really glad that you liked the writing. Thank you for your review :)

[Giulia King]

"Nothing but ugliness and the darkest shades under my eyes"
This is so powerful. Amazing job, Joey.

[Joey Nizz]

Thanks Gullia! Im glad you think so ^^

[Zephyr]

It has a strong message, Joey.........
Narcotics are no solution- the young people of today have to understand that.....
Great work...:)

[Joey Nizz]

Yes I agree, some people lie to them selves when they think that these are the solutions when its not it will just add more different problems to your life!
Thanks for your review Naat :)

[Zephyr]

Always my pleasure......

[Jes' Pi]

"Nothing but ugliness and darkest shades under my eyes"
ok, Joey. cool.

100/100

[Joey Nizz]

Thanks Jess, Thank you for your review :)