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Until We Meet Again

Until We Meet Again

A Story by Joey Nizz

I cant believe its been this long, so many days have passed, so many weeks followed with the months that became the years.
I didn't know on that day that your name was called, your name was called to go up in the clouds, it  broke my heart to lose you. You left peaceful memories in my heart and mind to remember you by, and even though I cannot see you I know you are always by my side, as I was for you when you used to be around.

I never got to see your face, not even once before you left, I never got to whisper words to make you feel safe, I never guided you to help you through the pain, Ill never get to sing to you just to see you smile or to see you sleep peacefully, there are many countless things I can never get to do with you because the hardest thing is not being with you anymore.

You lived in your own world, filled with nothing but pain and agony, I witnessed you being pushed around and I was there to pick you up,  I used to see you the next day with bruises and cuts and whenever I asked whats wrong you always said that you fell or any other excuse, and I believed, not knowing the truth of your abusive drunk father who beat you down almost everyday, he beat you, he raped you and he threatened you, everyday you used to come to me with a smile, and we used to talk about our plans of the future and everything that made us happy, little that I knew of what really happened after you went back home, everyday!
You were always strong enough to keep that special one in a million smile of yours, you were always alone and no one ever understood you, you were a beautiful vase that had roses, that shattered and with its broken pieces the roses were scattered with their petals on the ground.

Never saw it coming, but little did I know, I thought I made you strong, but I guess I was wrong, I didn't know it came down to this when I found out that day, you decided to pick up the blade to end it all, that blade took you away from me and I never got to say what I wanted to say, it was very hard for me to believe it until you were six feet under, I couldn't understand what was going on so I started to dig you out, half way through I realized that this was real so I had to stop, I was the only one who was there for you that day and that made me feel sad, I was alone that day when I saw them put you down, I didn't even look around to see if anyone else was there, because it was so silent  so quiet so surely no one was there. 
It was raining that day and it felt like tears, the tears you held on for so long from the pain and suffering, but I guess your finally home now and somewhere where you truly belong.

Those special memories we shared and your memory will always bring me a smile, ill try to keep that smile for your memory, but only if i could have you back for just a little while, we will sit and talk again, just like we used too, just like the old times, you always meant so much to me, you meant the world to me and will always do, you understood me more than anyone and I thought that I understood you too, the fact that you are no longer here will always bring me pain but know this, you will forever be in my heart.
I miss you and I love you, always had and always will

Until we meet again.

© 2017 Joey Nizz



Author's Note

Joey Nizz
I will still always be there for you,
And wherever you are now, I hope you finally found the peace you were hoping for.

R.I.P Pauline

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I am sorry for your loss.This is sad, beautiful and heartfelt!
Thank you for sharing!

Posted 2 Weeks Ago


Joey Nizz

2 Weeks Ago

Your welcome and thank you for reading :)
The emotions here are so sincere and heartfelt! My eyes were filled with tears in the middle part where you described her torture, and the water in my eyes escaped when I read, "Until we meet again."

In my opinion there is nothing more painful in this Earth than separation by death. All the regrets and self-blame are so overwhelming that we wish we could rewind every single thing over. Your piece was just so raw with emotion. Simple but heart-wrenching. It speaks volumes about your love for her.
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I hope you're fairing well, mate. I am SO sorry for your loss. I don't know if this really helps, but from what you described in the story, you were a really good companion to Pauline. You mentioned that you thought you didn't make her strong, but you gave her so much. I think that's the most valuable thing you could give, your love and your time.

Please do not blame yourself. She is in heaven now, and I am positively sure God is taking care of her right in this instant. Up there there is no more pain, no more torture, and no more tears for her. She will be happy for all eternity, and someday, you two will be reunited once again, just like before.

I am sorry if this review seems so sensitive for you, but I hope this helps. I know nothing of your pain or what she has experienced, but know there is God out there, all caring and loving.

Thank you for posting a part of yourself. :)

Posted 2 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

2 Months Ago

Thank you for your comment, I had to re read it again before I replied and I also had water in my ey.. read more
Gwenn the little girl

2 Months Ago

It's a relief that I was able to help you! Yes, even if you feel so downcast sometimes, know that pe.. read more
Joey Nizz

2 Months Ago

I agree, love knows no stranger, loving people no matter who they are can give us enlightenment and .. read more
detailed emotions always make my heart beat faster. you doubled the speed. great work my friend.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Your comments are so sincere and honest, their not foolish don't think that :P
Abraham George

3 Months Ago

just kidding bro
Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

lol you got me
That is one tough poem. Was sort of hoping daddy died a tragic death. Though that never seems to happen. I'm with Izzy on this one.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you Paul for reviewing, I'm sorry if you lost your dad in a tragic accident, that's what I go.. read more
Paul Bell

3 Months Ago

Sorry Joey. It was reference to Pauline's father. Hope he suffered.
Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

I apologize for misunderstanding and yes me too, I hope that he did, people like him don't deserve t.. read more
Aloha, this made me well up with tears. It's incredibly sad but written with so much heart and sincerity. Izzy

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you for your review Izzy :)
this is so heartbreaking and sad. I can feel the pain in this, well done

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you for your review :)
This is deeply sad but a beautifully written tribute.
Tabby

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you for your review, I just wanted to tell her story, at least this way some people will final.. read more
Tabby Mac

3 Months Ago

Your words painted a strong beautiful friend. Even in its sadness it speaks volumes of her and life... read more
Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you for your thoughts, I just wanted to tell her untold story to the world.
It was hear.. read more
She loved you enough not to share her heavy and (to her) shameful burden. That's quite the eulogy, Joey, and she made a difference in your life that she maybe didn't know then, but she does now.

Posted 3 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

3 Months Ago

Thank you carol, I never looked at it this way, I believe your right :)

Thank you for.. read more
This is truly beautiful, Joey. I love this.
She's looking down on you with a big smile, may she rest in peace

Posted 4 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

4 Months Ago

Thank you Gullia :)
I hope so too :)
Incredibly sad and beautifully written. Emotionally reaching depths at the core. Great job.

Posted 4 Months Ago


Joey Nizz

4 Months Ago

Thank you, for your review and comment :)
duff

4 Months Ago

Very welcome:)

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Added on June 11, 2017
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