Submerging, Fading & Succumbing

Everything is so convoluted

Every day is like a trial so full of impediments

That gives the impression of beyond the bounds of possibility (the impossible)

Throw the rope at me, for now, I'm sinking but will I make it?

People say that I'm a star but I still think to the tops I'll never make it

Here am thinking I just need another prayer but do I have even have a second?

I still feel that's somethings absent

Almost most of the time I just detest the pandemonium, the utter confusion that encloses me

Am I submerging?

Am I deteriorating?

OR am I existing? am I breathing for all ya'lls amusement and ya'lls entertainment?

I've seen hell and came back looking for answers, a meaning to this life

Here am standing beside my reflection trying to get s**t right!

Thinking that not even another minute left for one last breath

I feel like the darkness descending

Consuming

There was a time, many times

I questioned and asked myself if I'd ever be alright?

Running and running but still staying trapped by the sleepless nights, do you think I'm alright?

And here I am again thinking no seconds left for another breath is there something missing?

I keep running from myself and all of the things that I don't like and make sense just living every night like its the last night

And here again, I'm thinking it's too late for another prayer there isn't a second left...

I need to stop fighting

drenching in the turmoil here in real life just lost in everyone's lies and trapped by the stream of life caught by the undertow

Standing here like I'm on top of the world, exactly where I wanna be

So how can this dark cloud still be raining a thunder storm over me?

hell's a place that everyone knows

Whys it a place that looks like home?

Out of mind

Out of sight

Out of time

Where do I have to run?

where do I have to hide?

for the rest of my life just to make it stop

Either way...

Options change

Chances fail

My straight path derails

Into a field of nothingness

Is that where it ends?

Reviews

[Black Jess]

This is the utter awe !
I can see how everything is shadowed around you, and how you feel like you're sinking deep down like something is pulling you down, and the world seems to be a miserable place , and life a terrible joke !
Everything is so confused and crumbled in your head, you're running out of time and don't even know where or how you are ...
I see so many baffled emotions and perplexity, you seem very unhappy and miserable =( and it's devastating for you and for us, the readers, to see the weight of the pain that these words are carrying =$
I really really hope that everything will be brightened and that you'll find your lath again
Wish you good luck. And remember, no matter how hard it may be, while there's life, there's hope .
PS : sorry for being late to read and comment

[Joey Nizz]

Thank you for reviewing this and making me re read it i found a mistake that I just fixed, instead of: Either way...
Options change
Chances fail
My straight path details
my straight path derails.

and yeah, sometime i do feel that way, lost dont know where or how am i but thats how some people feel i guess the best thing to do for them is to write about it to escape.
Im sorry that my words bring a heavy weight..
I have always belived in hop no matter what and always have believed that everything happens for a reason, anyways thank you.. I appreciate it Jess :)
And dont worry about reading it an commenting late ^^

[Black Jess]

Haha I'm glad that you could add that missing line, it really adds something to the meaning
Ooh no, you don't have to be sorry, your heart spoke for your condition and it was honest, you obviously suffered a lot !
I knooow, you always write in a positive way and seeing this coming from you is really serious and worth a care !
Hope and believe, for the wind of change is coming , soon ...
Thanks and you're welcome ^^

[Joey Nizz]

lol yeah, so this poem has been kinda meaningless for a while x)
We all suffer, one way or another, but we should never give in.
Thanks, sometimes i do it to give myself some positivety and for others also
and I agree with you, the wind of change is coming, we just gotta wait for it and be patient.

[Black Jess]

how awkward when a trouble passes and then we see it so stupid x)
You're welcome

[Joey Nizz]

lol yeah I agree, our minds just jump into these weird conclusions that make these small tiny problems into something to worry about when its basically silly :P

[Black Jess]

well, i suppose every age has its own problems that may seem silly when we grow to another age !
read morewell, i suppose every age has its own problems that may seem silly when we grow to another age !

[Joey Nizz]

true I agree, its just how much does our mind grows to take things in and either understand it on a level or not understand it as much