You.

I wrote you yesterday,

strung these words into song.

until my balladry began to breathe the same airs

that swam your glorious lungs.

And with that, I could feel it again.

I could feel Alive.

That old warrior,

Thesarused deep, in you pores.

And it was a true thing, truly.

the way you danced.

As if the night was a recurring dream that would only stay with the sway of your hip.

When you slept, you slept with a book,

So that the pages would fall into your head just as you had fallen into them.

Rambunctious travellers, they were.

It was an exercise I did not understand.

A kind of tit-for-tat that tattered silence like a titter.

And so you lived a million lives,

sat at tables with punctuations you barely knew,

and drank wine with parantheses that shared your beliefs.

I remember you said that I was like the sun,

Because I took too much advantage of spaces,

Of corners and empty pages.

The sun only falls because it lacks conviction.

Its fear of diffidence cannot let it breathe another hour.

but I..I don't want to be sure.

I want to be so bitten by darkness that I have no choice but to make my own light.

i want to be so plagued with noise that it leaves me no choice but to carve my own silence.

I want to be far-flung.

I want to be retarded.

I want to laugh with old kings until they show me their wounds.

This is the only way you can see me as I have seen you,

The only way you can swallow me in your sleep.

Reviews

[Aries]

"
And it was a true thing, truly.
the way you danced.
As if the night was a recurring dream that would only stay with the sway of your hip.

When you slept, you slept with a book,
So that the pages would fall into your head just as you had fallen into them.
Rambunctious travellers, they were."

Love these two stanzas particularly, though the whole poem resonates with me. I really liked this one.

[Priscilla Sayers]

Beautiful Joshua....
I love this piece for so many reasons. A Soulful piece that shares so much of yourself with the reader. Stunning

[akihsna]

This is marvelous! :)

[KAOlmsted]

This entire piece was really good but I read this line a few times and just thought, holy cats that's REALLY good: "The sun only falls because it lacks conviction."

Thanks so much for sharing this with us!

[InsanityWriter]

Very vivid. Beautifully done.

[Nick.B]

Interesting write, love the last stanza...great job

[.]

~ me too... i'd like to be invisible as well... never speak... never get into a conversation... and just listen and listen and listen to all the sounds and songs of the universe... i would not like to be noticed... for any reason... i would like to be a personification of silence... but alas... the real world does not allow such possibilities... thank god there's poetry... and that too exquisite poetry... ~ thank you so much for this post... it just made me feel like that silence just for a moment... and it was so consuming... oh, and i too wish that someone would swallow me in his sleep... though i just didn't know how to articulate the thought... ~ awe-inspiring work...

[SHEEMA HUQ]

You tell a story so well, a quest for escape,you seem alos to be unravelling all the complexities involved of this relationship, very good

[Baby Ricochet]

I liked the last stanza about laughing with the old kings until they show you they're wounds. That's cool

[Junert]

Awesome. I love this.