When I was ten

I wrote this about a year ago it vaguely describes my depression and how long its gone on.

When I Was Ten.

I feel like I did when I was ten. When I was lonely and broken. When my only friend just treated me like another person they just saw everyday.

I feel like I did when I was ten. When the only person I could or would talk to was too far away to be there when I needed them.

I’m in the same position I was in when I was ten. When I was busy doing everything but yet still found I had to much free time on my hands. When free time was nothing but empty thoughts leading to scary places.

I feel like I did when I was ten. When I couldn’t help myself and I couldn’t help anyone else either. When my family was broken and when home wasn’t home anymore.

I’m just like I am when I was ten. When I was to mature for my own good but not mature enough to do anything about it. When strangers were my best friends because they were the only ones I could hold conversation with without wanting to break down in tears.

I’m just like I was when I was ten. When death wasn’t a choice I would ever think about making but being alive wasn’t a choice I wanted to pursue.

 I’m in the same position I was in when I was ten . . . I was only ten.

Reviews

[Haley]

This takes me to a very vulnerable place. Too many of us have been forced to grow up at such a young age. You've got a warrior soul. Nice job.