You're like a sister to me.

Bailey came into my room, and sat next to me on my old bed, her hair was neatly tied back, and make up was applied nicely.

“They watch your show every week” she told me, looking around the room, it took me a little while to realise that ‘they’ were our parents.

“They really miss you being on the other side of the world, you being here means alot to them you know, more than they let on.” She continued inching closer, reaching up behind me to pick up the photograph Lou relocated to the noticeboard above my head.

“Remember when we went to see the band, Dad thought we were crazy, by Mum she took us anyway right there at the signing when you looked at Lou, I thought to myself, if he were to choose between us he’d pick you, with your blonde hair and your eyes that everyone always adored, not mine though mine are plain and grey, with my stupid brown boring hair, and besides I was only twelve.” I tried to protest but she cut me off. “Now my oldest sister is on TV, having Louis Tomlinson’s baby, and instead of feeling jealousy and rage I’m proud of her. You’re the most annoying and luckiest girl in the world but I don’t hate you, I should but I don’t and it frustrates me Jay. I’m sorry about being so distant” tears were falling down her cheeks, I’d never seen her cry for something that wasn’t causing her physical pain, my sister who never ever showed any signs of human emotion was crying right in front of me, it pained me to see her like that, so I sat up and hugged her the best I could, I wanted to take the pain away from her, I needed her to know that I’d never seen myself as this perfect girl she’d supposedly visioned me as her entire life.

“I’m not that great, Lou’s an amazing guy, and I still don’t know why he chose me. We met by mistake he wasn’t meant to go to that party, maybe God had something to do with it, but trust me it was not a matter of him choosing me over you, you’re an amazing person Bailey, I’ve never told you that but I should have, you’ve always been such a strong person, I’d be the one crying because my friends weren’t speaking to me, you’d always tell me they didn’t matter, but I still cried every single time I was left out, I cried about everything and you just stood tall like nobody could hurt you and I wished I could be like you but I’m not and I never will be, I’ve had to accept the fact that I’ll always be the weaker sibling. You and Tamy are so much braver than I ever will be” we were both crying by now, I hugged her even tighter than before, her nails dug into my arms this was a moment I’ve longed to have with my sister for years. I’d always thought she hated me, Tamy was always her favourite, in fact she was always mine too, and she’s the missing link between us.

The only thing Bailey and I had shared was One Direction, Tamy was always ‘too cool’ for them, but I think she’s come to love them, she’ll have to now that they’re practically family!