Nigrum TaurusA Poem by James Freel StevensonFrom my first collection, this work describes my memory of birth, sixty three years ago in the Scottish industrial heartland of Motherwell.Nigrum
Taurus
Darkness
then pain Emerging
from universal sleep again Nigrum
Taurus angrily appears To greet
the current version of me.
Startled confusion flight and
fear My existence pitiful as it was Powerless against Nigrum Taurus I defeat him with my mind To claim the first victory.
Disease gnaws at my spine No air fills my lungs My head, pain wracked Lays heavy upon my neck A time to live, not die.
Retching into life with puny form Time passed in the torturous
darkened reign Fragmented light, broken as my
body Spewing forth by alchemy A poor pathetic version of life But life just the same.
No great fanfare nor Royal
Household A lesser life hard to design These darkest of days unfold
before me My mind the solo asset to behold.
Again I rise, and rise again Weary at the start of life No strength as many men find I gaze upon Nigrum Taurus Sensing each other’s fear of my
mind.
Have at me then, I goad in silent
thought As he breaks my outer Ye shall not impede upon my will For I hold the key to my survival.
Sanity tempts beyond my grasp I plead for coherence,
understanding even, But still I’m locked behind the
glass A life without reason.
Perhaps Nigrum Taurus twists my
brain Engaging it in battle thus Or perhaps God in his wisdom Left me incomplete, near insane.
From behind the glass a world I
behold Believing it different or better Unable to change my outward
reflection I am granted a life less bold.
‘Stay off the rails’ echoes
within my head The King of ‘out there’ cried My fragile soft boned legs, tired Attempting journeys to school and
pride.
In God’s grace and favour still Life and time were granted me To wander through eternity Bereft of reason I can see, I
wander on It is his will.
Nigrum Taurus rages on at my head My mind stronger for his presence I continue with this version of
me Unaware what lies ahead.
The king’s message though
distorted, lasts Carried by tides of thought My life a delusion of who I am Parting company with myself
decide Avoiding the rails has some
validity.
Not for me the narrow and
straight Learning? Mere experience
gathered Books to write, not read, my fate My mind yet strong, not withered.
Life pursued off the rails, strange
imaginings Head to head with Nigrum Taurus Raging at the world at large We continue to heed the King. © 2016 James Freel StevensonAuthor's Note
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Added on February 2, 2016 Last Updated on February 2, 2016 AuthorJames Freel StevensonAzay Sur Thouet, Deux Servres, FranceAboutHi, I'm James Freel Stevenson. Author, Poet, Anarchist. I've made the transition from technical author to creative author and I wish I'd done it thirty years ago! Never mind, I'm only 63 so there's pl.. more..Writing
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