Heart Broken...

Passed Away...

Heart Broken...

My heart is broken,
My thoughts are ambushed with
overloaded emotions and guilt.

I need gorilla grip to hold it together
and a steel shield to block the onslaught
of overwhelming painful thoughts.

I want to turn back time to fix what is broken,
unfortunately life doesn't work that way and the
damage is done.

Time goes on, while I stand still dwelling in pain.
I am on the brink of chaos!!!

I want to die in the arms of the lord,
like my little brother died in mine.

I was never there when he needed me
and this time was no different.

I was never his hero,
instead he was mine.

Cal-gone take me away,
I'm in extreme pain and the guilt is tearing me
apart, like a pack of wolves feasting on there prey.

I am angry,
I have yet again failed him,
I am lonely,
I am miserable,
I am dying inside,
I am heart broken!

Author's Note

My brother passed away 5/20/16
R.I.P GRW I♥U!!!
All glory to God...

Reviews

[Sapientiam]

I'm so sorry for your lost, though, I know you may have heard it a lot... You know, my twin sibling died years ago. So young and the death was unexpected. Because we were identical, I felt as if half of my soul had perished as well. Well, technically that would be right... But, I understand how that lingering pain can just eat away more and more until there is nothing but hollowness. I don't even know why I moved on. Yet, it is these types of things that ought to make us stronger. Of course there is guilt, but we cannot hold on to the past. They are nothing but burdens. We have a choice whether to become destroyed by our circumstances or let it refine us so that we can lead much better, joyful lives. No matter how broken you get, Just remember that the Lord knows your pain.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words, b-blessed!

[Kelly Scheppers]

Losing a sibling causes us to face our own immortality. I lost an older sister and felt as though I couldn't go on without her. Perhaps the best thing we can do to honor their memory is simply just that - to go on without them. But they're never really gone, are they? They're with us for the rest of our lives!

Bless you!

[Jamestown]

I completely agree:) thx for checking it out and b-blessed!

[JannaBanana]

Very expressive writing. I'm so sorry for your loss dear. Keep your faith. God Bless!

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Christina]

Well written, your words did touch my broken heart too. Stay strong and Be Blessed James.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Bear]

So much of life remains a mystery and the why things happen as they do, is the biggest of all. The puzzle pieces never fall into place to show us the events of the future till it has past. It test us in the cruelest ways, temptations of power or lust, of fame or fortune to distract us from our responsibilities to our self, to our family. So we end up surviving on guilts and regrets for things that in reality were beyond our control but haunt us regardless. As I aged I learned to forgive myself and shed most of my restraining regrets and shrink my guilt's with good deeds in restitution. I hope you are able to do the same thing without having to live the majority of your life in suffrage before you find a peace that brings freedom to your soul.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind words of support,
much appreciated and b-blessed!

[ManasaC]

I am so sorry for your loss. The pain that one goes through is something that can't be really penned down. But this is a true depiction of how shattered a person can be on the loss of a loved one. Really beautiful!

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[TrimarcoRansome]

I find one of the most important healing processes in my life have been the times in which I write. Nothing makes the pain soothe, nothing you read will mend your shattered heart...but every time you write, a little part of you understands inside, bit by tiny bit.

Sending love and healing from across the miles to you.

[Jamestown]

Writers block since I wrote this piece:(
Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[TrimarcoRansome]

The block will lift, it always does :)

[Drama Child]

My condolences.. beautifully written.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Ange Faith]

Truly touching. RIP brother. You have him in your heart now where he will never leave again. your poetry reaches beyond the pain and into the unknown, a frightening place.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[wordman]

a touching tribute,and my condolences

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!