Disordered

Perception, what is real from what is not.

What I feel will not even begin to fathom my explanation nor my reason

My mind is hidden beneath my skin

Without it, my soul would disintegrate into the earth below

You came around to be beneficial

You make me happy beyond reason & crestfallen without cause

My reality is differed from what I see to be real

For whom I am, for who I am becoming

I suppose I always enjoyed change, though it is constant

You explore within me 

You look for my ambition

Good luck in finding it

You've passed it a hundred times, going for my hopes and goals, my false fears

Yes, what you recognize is beautiful, but that

That is not me; it is what you run toward

Because without it, with me you are alone

Without my presence, you feel your body weak from the natural depression gravity gives off

Author's Note

I wrote this 3 years ago and am too attached to delete it.I realize its not the greatest or anything close...

Reviews

[Seshat Nidaba]

What people don't realize, is artistic ambition is hard to pin down. The artists rarely call it such, but they have an extreme kind of motivation. Good on your craft.

[Z]

I agree with the below comment.

you reveal your feelings deep enough for one to realize what you're trying to prove. And it proves marvelously.

keep on writing. you're definately on to something great

[Aki]

After reading that all I have to say is Thank You.

I have a close friend experiencing this same thing and this really showed me...a lot. So, thank you. So much.