Not Good Enough

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I'm tired of not being good enough,
of you always judging my every move.
Somehow I never reach your standards,
I never get the right to be proud.

I'm tired of you planning every detail of my life,
of you never letting me be.
Somehow I can never match my siblings in anything,
I can never make you proud.

I'm tired of always being the "problem child,"
of always trying to earn your affection.
Somehow I fall short of the mark every time,
i  fall short of doing anything right.

I'm tired of not being good enough for you,
because I know that I am.
Somehow never reaching your standards,
when I know I go beyond them.
 

I'm tired of not living my life,
because you want to live it for me.
Somehow you think you raised them better,
when I know they're just as fucked up.

I'm tired of being the "problem" with no solution,
because I know I am no problem.
Somehow never reaching your impossible mark,
when it's you who should be reaching mine.

Author's Note

blech

Reviews

[RyannCarrie]

this was great

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

I know what you mean , and can really relate to this beautiful honest poem, your words are beautiful Yossi

[*** Hey Jude***]

Nicely shown inner strength you have shared through perfectly placed words that allow the reader to feel the emotional truth behind the words. Love a strong woman, nice write! ~ Jude :-)

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

I like this very much...great emotions..and i totally agree with you.
Great Job

[WriterMe]

Hey this was pretty good. You sort of brought pf the whole "I am tired of you telling me how to be me" factor out really well. I guess at some points all of us get fed up of people always telling us how to live our lives. Great work =]

--Niki

[Buni]

i sooo feel you here! everyone feels like they're the one who are being mistreated and the other siblings get all the attention when we're just though of as a problem.. i feel the same way sometimes.. you did a very good job with expressing yourself here! nice work!