Tsunami

the feelings

and emotions

 

The "to do's"

and "have to's"

 

build up

 

I'm sinking,

I'm drowning.

 

You put them off, you wait to later,

You see the need to begin, but for some reason, you don't

you watch

as a tsunami

builds

 

At first you're curious

and your subconscious builds

warns

tells you what you should do

to survive.

 

But for some reason, you don't

go

take care of things

 

you stand there

watching

helpless

 

as the water recedes

you go closer.

It reveals things

Things you have never seen before, but had an inkling that were there.

You tempt it.

Bring it on.

And avoid the toughest part

of trying to survive.

The most important.

To begin, to start,

To make yourself go and do what you must.

 

You stand there.

In the distance, the water is building,

coming back

to destroy, swamp you.

Your instincts know it

but you still don't do what you need to

in order to come out alive.

 

You see it coming, and wait in awe

as it dawns on you

that it may be too late.

 

The Wave is coming.

The blast of suffocation

gasping

floating, drowning.

 

And you finally flee.

But it takes so much more energy

and work to do it now.

Because you know what you may lose

and don't know what will result.

 

Will you survive?

Will everyone else?

 

You are swamped, and trying to stay afloat

but up is down and down is right and right is up and left is nowhere.

You knew you should have began, ran, decided earlier.

But you were left, standing in awe,

Waiting for it to overcome you.

Waiting for the wave to leave you

As you hoped it might leave you washed new, clean.

But you knew it would probably leave a mess, disaster

Thoughts, minds, love, despair

All your work scattered.

 

The Tsunami hit.

I waited.

Am waiting.

And its taking over me.

I know what is to come.

What needs to be done.

But I'm drowning

and the idea of not working

not struggling

to stay afloat

Sounds appealing.

But i still know

and still need to begin

and still can survive.

But Why Don't I?

Why do i wait for the life boat to come,

Why do I hold onto the fraying rope,

Grasp at it,

Rely on it to save me?

It can only stay together for a time,

Save me for the big one,

But how many after shocks and waves can it keep me alive for?

 

The tsunami hits.

Its over.

You begin to search.

But then comes the first after wave

after shock

smaller each time,

but as tearing and destructive as the first.

Because the first bore down hard

and it is rubbing against an open sore

wearing it down even more.

 

I will survive.

I have before.

But how long must I wait

Before someone else comes down with me?

Gets hurt more?

 

Reviews

Wow! I loved this and could so very much understand and I have been there.. I love the way you compared the emotions to nature, the fast, swift harshness, unable to fight against but having the abilty to withstand it. The descriptions were right on the mark and I admit, I was bobbing up and down from the force.. trying to breath till it passed.. wonderful my friend...

[*~Imperfectly Me~*]

I love this piece! It's very good.... Tsunami.... that is what life is.... It's a Tsunami just waiting to hit... some are small ones... others are life changing to life ending...

"but up is down and down is right and right is up and left is nowhere." I LOVE THIS!!!!