Déjà Vu

Sometimes I'm too curious for my own good...

Morbid curiosity draws my hand,

As if by unseen force

And with a single glance,

My carefully constructed barriers

Disintegrate as if never there

The words I read cause my heart to sink,

And my arms long to hold you,

Whisper that it'll be all right

Each word scribed within your verse

Like a lash upon my soul

As the memories flash behind my eyes

Each laugh, each caress

As if I'm living it again

My anger set my momentos alight

But could not scorch them from my mind

Every time I look around,

Something still reminds me of you

Your voice, your words

The way you held me at night

Seeped in so deeply as if it were a part of me

Then the pain comes again,

As I knew it would,

The mourning of what was

And could have been

I turn from your words 

Eyes closed to force everything back

That is no longer my life

Nor will that imagined future ever be

Nothing can forgive what you did,

I won't let myself be that naïve, 

I still need to get past you it seems

Work harder at being happy

And scour clean the parts of you

That are also a part of me

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

Eyes closed to force everything back.
Well penned

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

That is so beautiful ... I was there ... i still afraid of words which will send me back to the pain , when my heart was bleeeding with no help ... I even afraid to watch pictures that will remind me on the sweet times .... I afraid of the memories ... I afraid they will be so real ... that the deep pain will come back ... again