The miracle

Sammy was born with a heart defect. She lost all hope until she found out she was pregnant at 16. The only part is, is she's dying.

I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant with my first baby. I never expected or planned to be a teen mom. I was always a happy kid. My mom had to raise me and my 2 older sisters and one older brother by herself. My dad left her when I was only 2 years old. I was born with half a heart. The doctors always told me my whole life that I was a miracle baby and that I wouldn't make it pass 18. I believed them. I made my will when I was 13 years old. Can you imagine that? Having to make a will when your only 13 years old? I always told my mom that it wasn't fair. I wanted to grow up and have a family. I wanted to be rich, I wanted to be a princess. I got it in my head that I wasn't gonna make it pass 18. So I gave up all hope. My mom was the strongest woman I knew. Never once did she give up hope. She never cried in front of me. Sometimes when I was in pain and couldn't sleep I could hear my mom crying in the other room. Screaming out to God. It wasn't Gods fault though. He made me this way because he believed I was strong. He believed I could hold it together. He gave me to my mom because he knew that she was the most strong woman for this job. She was given the strongest job in the world. She had to give up her life to make sure I did everything I wanted to do before I die. He knew that she would have hope when nobody else did, not even me. When I was 15 I met this guy that knew all my secrets. I told him everything. I told him how my dad died. How I was gonna die soon. And he listened I truly believed he was the one. I believed he actually loved me. I was with him for a year when I found out I was pregnant. I was scared. Not because I was a teenager. I was scared because I didn't want my baby to be missing any of her body parts. I almost aborted this baby because it scared me so much. My mom talked me out of it. She said:

"Baby, you can do this. This may be the only chance you ever get to bring a life into this world. This baby needs you, just like you needed me. You can't give up on a living being because your scared hunny. If I found out that you were gonna be born with half a heart before you were born. I would've still had you. I wouldn't have given up on you before you before you even had a chance. Give it a chance."

That's exactly what my mommy told me that night that I told her about my pregnancy and what I thought I should do. My mom was right though. I couldn't give up on a helpless baby. I wouldn't want anyone to give up on me. So I will have this baby, and I will love it until the day I die. My mom knew this would probably be her only grandchild so she didn't really care about how old I was. I found out when I went into the doctors the next week that I was already 13 weeks. They told me that if he or she shows them self good enough than I can find out what I'm having.

"So if the baby is active than you can tell? Is that what your saying?" I asked.

"Thats exactly what I'm saying."

"Let's do it than." I heard my mom say from the chair next to me.

I looked at her and she smiled at me. As if I said a funny joke. I rolled my eyes.

"Let's get this over." I got off the chair and headed to the room that the doctor told me was easier since it already had the ultrasound stuff in it already.

I couldn't believe I was actually getting this ultrasound. I couldn't believe I was actually having a baby. It all felt like a dream. I had been dying for so long that I never even expected to ever have a baby.

The doctor put this cold gel stuff on my belly. Than put the X-ray thing on my belly and moved it around. It was so cold. Just like that my baby was on the screen. It was so tiny. It was so scary. I looked at the doctor than looked back at the screen. That was my baby.

"Would you like to hear the heartbeat?"

"Can I?" I looked up at the doctor. He turned up this volume and pressed a button. And there it was the most amazing sound in the world. It was going in a rhythm. Boom. Boom. Thump. Thump. It was alive. And my babies heart sounded just like it's supposed to.

"Would you like to know what your having?"

"Yes please."

"Your having a..."

Author's Note

There is always hope. No matter what happens. Have faith.

Reviews

[Tony Jordan]

What is THIS?
Are you telling me that the stork doesn't deliver the babies? Yeah right...next thing you'll be telling me there's no Santee Claus Katie !!
I never had the pleasure of such an experience as you penned here and yet love is something I do know of and I can feel that coming through loud and clear here. :)

[Katierose_19]

Haha hmmmm storks? I wish they came from storks. Less pain. Haha thanks for the commentary I really appreciate it 🙂

[Tony Jordan]

Pain...pfft...I had an ingrown toenail once - now that's pain !!
joking...
lol
Welcome.

[Annette Pisano-Higley]

Your Author's Note comment says it all Katie. Your story is so poignant, personal, courageous and deeply moving. If it's about you, may God bless and heal you. Beautifully written. You have so much talent! Keep writing! :)xo

[Katierose_19]

Thank you so much. Writing is the only way I know how to be heard when I feel I need to be.