Hopelessness

 

Never mine

Never I am meant to be

And I can see it in her eyes

That it wasn’t me

 

I can see it in her eyes

I breathe it along with her scent

That all my dreams were lies

To be hers’ I’m never meant

 

And for my silence

I regret and weep

I weep in silence

Hardly I can ever sleep

 

I mind not her joy

I mind not joy of him

Yet why do I cry

Though I’d be happy for them

 

Not blind I am

Clearly I can see

Neither I envy nor I do damn

But what about me

 

How long more do I have to bleed

I bled on snow till it got red

Even red became the green field

My hair, my clothes, and even my bed

 

Much more do I have to wait

How much time would I get

I fill my heart instead of hate

Hard I drink trying to forget

 

And still I neither envy nor curse

Nor do I wait in hope

My shadow is the only one to embrace

Drowning I hold both ends of rope

 

I drown in darkest sea

Holding to life less

Never I’ll be free

And now I drown in hopelessness

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

Filled with such powerful and painful emotion... that sense of lostness.. letting go but not knowing how.. I've been in this place and i dread it more than any other I know..