The Writer's Journal

 

The Writers journal

Alone no one here to see the hurt

I guess you say he took it from me because I wore that low cut shirt

His love hidden behind cartoon sheets

His hands feeling my childhood away dreams

My mouth is close with nails

He told me to never tell

She won’t believe me

Doesn’t believe anything she see

I guess you can call me the runner

The writer’s journal

Pressure my whole f*****g life to be someone I’m not

I don’t like football, basket ball or any of that other s**t

But my dad disowns a gay who does ballet

The smiles that I wear are fake

For Christ sake

I love him unconditionally

Why cant he do the same

I can give you this story about me not caring im gonna be me

But I cant so I turned it off

Ha, I guess you can say my sexuality now has a lid

With a wife and 3 kids

Call me nocturnal

The writer’s journal

Happiness we all want and will step on anything or anyone no matter the cost

Why do we see nothing but happiness as an outlet?

And we pay the fee

But I’m not blind I can damn well see

I danced in the mirror

Wishing I was on Broadway

Somewhere with buildings and far away

Dreamed of traveling the world

And falling in love with …

With

You

But I didn’t, I couldn’t

I hope you forgive me

I had to marry him

It was for my own sake

Selfish I guess

But true

Nothing change I still am deeply deeply in love with you

I lay in a bed next to a men I barely know now

His cold and business originated just like my father

So I’m sitting here big house and money

No children just this big house

My life is a mistake

I left you in Peru that summer

I still remember

How you smile in your sleep at thought of our dreams

Then woke up and …

I was gone

No letter or a phone call

Im f*****g sorry .i never will forgive myself

I swear ill leave him

Only for happiness and that’s you

S**t just writing this is making me more confused

but this is only a journal

and its only life

RIGHT?

I married  nocturnal and I guess you can call me the runner

Our life is The Writers journal

Reviews

[ScorpioPoet]

really great poem! flowed very nice!

[DiggeyEleven]

That was a pretty heartfelt poem, with a good flow. There are some spelling errors here and there, maybe a line that can alter the flow just a bit. But overall I really enjoyed the read, it kept me wanting to read, it had a great story to it, full of emotion. Great read.

[Tracie Skarbo]

OMG!! I love this...I was wondering where it was all going and then the end blew me away! Awesome job! I am going to put this in my favorites and you definitely get a 100%.

Tigra