A suicide note... of sorts

Just a thought

A SUICIDE NOTE .... OF SORTS

 

Life is loaded weapons

Pushing in on my temple

Waiting to take me back to my essence

Threatened with a hair trigger

If I don't learn from life's lessons

And they make me the answers to your questions

Like, is life a cancer or a blessing?

Or is it a lonely walk with the chance of affection?

Love whispers in my ear

Take a stance for a connection

God is like a noose wrapped around my neck

Telling me to put the people in check

Or it drops the floor and watches my body slowly sway

As my legs kick it turns its back and throws my life away

Friendship is the knife plunging into my heart

The reason it's turning cold

Reminding me to play my part

The inception of my inspiration to the arts

Yet it's where the pain starts

My family is the razor blades to my wrists

If I can't provide each one with a better way to live

The smiles of which are my reasons to give

The drive I feel inside when society puts a spear in my ribs

Fame along with my brain is the chains I’m shackled to

A burden all my own, the cross that I’m strapped to

Not cause I want, but have to

The nails in my palms and whips to my back

Are the torture I last through

A burden of my own doing in hind-sight

Maybe from chasing the limelight

The public? They're the ones throwing stones

Judging the path I walk all on my own

They try to break me down with heresy

Watch my flesh rip raw to the bone

And leave me to deal with the outcome all alone

My expectations for myself?

That's the fluid I'm drowning in

Filling my lungs with ether

Dark waters surrounding

My dreams?

They're the light of tomorrow

Reminding me that maybe,

It was all worth the sorrow

But, if I can't get rid of this cargo

Well...

I guess I still have that same light of better days

Another chance at life or a memory to take to grave.

Truly yours,

Reviews

[Libby McKeown]

I think this would be an excellent performance piece. The words are passionate and visceral I think it would make for a heart -stopping show. The last line needs some rework, I think, something more final, or something surprising that makes your jaw drop. Just a suggestion. Thanks for sharing!

[dutch2lips]

Hi there, new here, no posts yet but clicked on your write and read it. First of, loved the feel of desperation and almost that the author is tired of strife more then anything, then the gentle arch of hope for tomorrow towards the end, lovely.
If I have anything to bring in this I would write "they are the light of tomorrow" instead of "They're the light of tomorrow", I don't understand the cargo bit, it clashed in my eyes with the rest of the write, if you lost that whole sentence, the read is heartbreaking and raw and ending up with a ray of hope.
Ok, maybe what I am saying is ridiculous, if so, let me know and I won't do this again. (First time and all).
Enjoyed your write enormously, thank you for that!

[joshua deathdealer]

Nicely done!!