Daily Struggle

I lack inspiration,
Motivation,
And information.
I have no clue what’s wrong with me.
Why, I can’t seem to get a grip.
Deep down in angers me.
I’m so mad at myself.
I can’t let go.
I can’t move on.
I can’t forgive.
I can’t dream.
And I can’t want.
It haunts me that I can’t find a point in life.
But, my dark thoughts
Have a hold on me.
I’m hurt.
But I have no idea why.
I’m pitiful.
The grandest pity party,
You’ve ever seen.
How do you change something you didn’t want or plan?
How do you break through
A deep rooted cycle.
I feel like I’m fighting
A war against myself.
I’m so exhausted.
Mentally and physically.
God help me.
Save me from myself.
Because if I keep going down this path.
I’m afraid of what the outcome will be.
This daily struggle,
Is slowly killing me.
And I don’t know if I can stop it.