memory

a forgotten part of me

And there I saw it..

those 'dissapeared' Scars stared at me..

from a life once forgotten..

from a - now - 'fictional' part of me..

thoughts of the pain,

the anguish,

 the emotion,

those thoughts flooded my mind's eye.

How could I, Carron, have done that?

Been so sad?

Been so emotional?

Been so pathetic?

Been at a low like that.

feelings of disgust for myself accompanied those thoughts.

And then it happened..

the frightened helpless little girl said hello..

She smiled.. and as she did so, my tears flowed..

Did i pitty her, or empathise?

i empathised,

because that little girl was now crying too..

and as i stare into the mirror..

she stare back at me..

while i wiped her tears

she told me that everything is okay now

she's happier

but i couldn't stop crying..

 

then i looked down to the Scars watching me..

and they'd dissapeared again..

but the memories stayed..

and i still cry.

Author's Note

I havent cried like i did when writng this in a long time

Reviews

it's infuriating when you think that you're finally going to be okay- and then the tiniest thing can set you off.
it's the small little things that do the most damage.

[Ants']

I have similar memoirs… do you remember those days! A beautiful Read Carron.

[lady ash]

Mwah on your forehead... I can relate aswell, but it's a part of who you were that you should embrace and then let go. You'll be okay.

[Zane Mathias]

this brings a tear to my eyes when i read it~ great writing of emotions! b.p.

[Starting Over]

Very emotional!!! I can relate to those scars on your wrist! I have a few and when I look at them I think about my life!!!! Very good write!!!!