Letting Go.

I can't sleep

I don't want to eat.

I need to pretend that everything is fine.

I don't want to wake up

I want to stay everlastingly trapped in the world of dreams and fantasies.

Instead I have to watch them together.

The anger and jealousy gnawing at my insides.

Sometimes I look into the eyes I wish so much were mine,

And see a beautiful light in the dark world I live in.

I don't care if it's against the rules, I want to be with the one I can't have

So I stray away, falling further, further with 

Every.

Stolen.

Kiss.

All of the longing gazes.

All of the hushed conversations.

All of the flirtatious smiles.

I long for them, bringing pain with every thought.

I can't sleep.

I don't want to eat.

I need to pretend that everything's fine.

I don't want to wake up.

But I have to sleep.

I have to eat.

I have to uncover what I want and express it.

I have to wake up.

Let go.

Sometimes, I worry that if I let go,

It will be to early.

Sometimes, I worry that if I let go,

You will never be mine.