How does it feel?

This was painful to write.

How does it feel?

 

On a cold and lonely night, I can feel him on me, I yell and I scream no one hears... or so it seems

 

His hand trickle down my body as he rain thuds on the windowsill, he whispers in my ear, How does it feel?

 

No response is given so he carries on

I repeat to myself in a minute he'll be gone

 

A minute has gone by and he is still here

I repeat to myself life is not fair

 

Then I feel something hard as steel

Murmured this time but, still I hear - How does it feel?

 

I cannot say anything it feels like I have no voice; silence again I have no choice

 

Rain man covers my face with what looks like a dark cloud; he enters me - no one hears me cry out.

 

Ms Young soft meets Mr. Old steel. I hear the question again, How does it feel?

 

Blackness is all I see the pain was too much

The storm knocks out all the power and I wonder if I would need a crutch?

I wake up, it is another day the sun had some out, and the rain man has gone away

 

Mother stands over me with something for my throat she said you woke up coughing I thought you'd choke

Come on now hurry and get ready for school, Why are you moving so slow - girl what is wrong with you? I say to myself if only you knew

 

I got up from the bed afraid to stand I suddenly felt the pain brought by the rain man.

 

Thought out the morning if someone noticed something different as I got ready for another school day and asked what was wrong nothing is what I had to say

 

I grabbed my books and headed for the door then Mom calls back to me in the back of my mind I wondered what for

By this time, I had almost forgotten my whole ordeal then she says "Your throat honey"? - How does it feel?

Author's Note

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