Today is bad

Depression is lonely & dark, a real cruel place.
It rips me apart, whilst screaming with a smile on my face .
It only hurts those I really love in my life.
Inside depression is there , carving me with a great big knife.
To the rest of the world I'm just me , Lenny Hart.
To those close by they see the depression tear me apart .
Are things really as bad as they seem.
Or is depression clouding my mind with a dark broken vision between.
My mind is slowly going into self destruct mode once again.
Thoughts and dreams of death , HANGING , I know where, but not when.
I'm scared , not of death , its the losing control of my mind.
A way out of this life , I don't fear, for life is cruel not kind.
Lenny Hart 29/5/17