Heart Song

There was a song I had long forgotten

or not forgotten but locked away.

A tune, you carelessly hummed

and caused my heart to wake.

Your touch, your eyes, your knowing smile.

You always knew the end of every game we played.

You won my heart in your gaze.

These days,

All I long for is to touch your face.

To bathe your tresses and

 run fingers through.

My desires lie above.

My desire is you.

Those days,

I stayed above water.

Any deep depth chilled

& caused  bones to shake.

Those days,

I could not meet your eyes.

Those days in the past,

I told only lies;

Go away I don’t want you do not speak to me

These days, I fear

-but fear is nothing new to me

I will drown in fear if it will bring me closer to you, as

A day without you is what I have grown used to.

But nothing need remain the same.

Nothing gold or black can stay.

We can try to be close again.

Your eyes are life

Of green growing things and faerie dreams

Your smile lifts my heart strings.

Your song opens me through and through

I know you KNOW me

As I KNOW you.

We are foolish to deny it, to fight  or hide it.

Do you not understand yet?

This song between us, in our bones and souls

Is not one long forgotten or  denied.

We can ignore and hope it fades,

But life’s shores  bring us to each other’s doors.

The wind carries our songs to each other’s ears, and

The  bubbling rushing river carries our hopes and fears.

Our hearts  ache when the other’s in pain.  

 Black hearts will part.

Only love remains.