I Want To Blackout

I Want To Blackout

A Poem by Askew

I don't want to be sober,
Or to be able to think rationally.
I want a buzz that dulls my senses
And hides my common sense,
I want to dance until I die
And kiss strangers till I run out of breath.

I want to not want you,
I want to forget your name
And the way your lips feel on mine.
I want to forget how it sounds
When you say you love me
And the way your mouth moves
When you say you can never be with me.

It's time to force those memories from my mind,
It's the night to blackout.
In the morning
When I wake up groggy and sick,
Tonight won't be real,
But your face will still 
Burn a hole in my mind
And your voice will still
Be perfect as it makes my ears bleed.

I don't want to be sober
And I don't want to be used by you again.
I'll try to make myself refuse,
But we both know I'm desperate for you.

© 2019 Askew


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Often when a relationship that becomes part of us ends there is a tendancy to 'explode' like a fragment grenade in all directions a s the confusion, hurt and anger build and needs to be released. Getting drunk is like pulling the pin and next morning the shrapnel scars hurt.

Posted 5 Years Ago


Blacking out to forget the pain of living. So sad but many do it, resorting to drugs or alcahol to help them change their state of mind. It happens. Your protagonist wants to give up her habit, and I'm talking about the him here. She can't find the strength to do it. That song Addicted to love, comes to mind. Another good write Lexi. Keep them coming.

Chris

Posted 5 Years Ago



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