A sense of Desperation

A poem I wrote a long time ago, about my aching heart. I was so troubled than... and nobody knew. They were just outsiders looking in. They had no clue what my 5 year relationship was like.

I've fought desperately to stay in your grasps,

so fragile I am,

Shattered I am... broken I am...

Time and time again,

You loosen my grip as I desperately hold on,

And you continuously built your wall,

Back up and then back down again,

I could barely hold on... confused I am,

Your pride and ego got in the way of feelings,

It was taken over by anger...

And I'm the one to blame!

Because I have feelings ,

All I ever wanted was to help you grow,

Help you become a greater you,

Wanted to teach you empathy and compassion,

Supported you through every decision,

But you never gave me that recognition.

You made me your enemy,

I never chose this path,

I never asked for anything,

We just needed a remedy,

A cure for this insanity

A cry for help,

But you were silent,

you were always silent.

Tears were an annoyance to you,

People should be strong,

You keep breaking my heart...

The very sight of tears would turn you monstrous,

And you'd destroy anything in your path.

The very sight of you jabbed my soul deeply,

I cannot stand to watch,

It was of no interest to you,

That I needed to be saved,

Because you're confident I'd stay forever.

Even if you mistreated me,

Apologies didn't exist with us,

Only resentment and broken promises,

We're left hanging on a loosen thread barely moving on...

But I will let go someday,

I will find my happiness ,

You will find yours..

And no longer will we be in each others way..

Reviews

[Rob Santana]

Wow, OMG!! This past Sunday I just came out of a relationship that didn't even have a chance to grow. I'm so messed up right now about it. This piece here says it all. I still love her, I hate myself for that. 100% relateable....

[Tena Luvs]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Sometimes these certain things happens to to us so we are allowed to learn about ourselves, through these individuals. They are our reflection challenging us. Don't worry, there is always someone out there for somebody. He's still very much inlove with me. He's as messed up too. But you see throughout the whole relationship, my heart was constantly broken. We lacked communication. I had to go and find my happiness. He will find his too, just like you will. You can't really hold on to something when you know you shouldn't be. In the end you must let go. Keeping them for selfish reasons, will only make eachother miserable. Thankyou for relating. And I hope everything works out for you..

[Sami Khalil]

"Apologies didn't exist with us,
Only resentment and broken promises,
We're left hanging on a loosen thread barely moving on..."

Wow. You laid it all on the table. It is kind of purging and timely moving on. Bravo..................

[Tena Luvs]

Thank you, Even though this relationship has ended it still haunts me, but I've move on and am now happily in love. Thank you

[Sami Khalil]

Good. You are welcome...:).....................

[Roger Turgeon]

It is sad when your cry for help falls on a love one's ear as a whisper. "In each other's way" struck a cord with me .... a fitting end.

[Tena Luvs]

Thank you for your kind words.

[David Scott]

Sometimes it is best to move on and "get out of the way" so to speak. We are often more in the way of our own progress in these situations than we are in the way of any other person...
A fine write.

[Tena Luvs]

Yes when it gets to the point of no return and no progress you're really hurting eachother. The best thing to do is to let go. Thankyou