This wall

I know what they all think, 

They all think I have this wall of mine up too high. 

But what most don't realize is this wall is there for a reason. 

I've been hurt too many times to put the wall back down, 

It took a lot of strength and power to put this wall up around me. 

It meant putting myself before others, something I struggle with. 

It meant that it was time to save myself all on my own. 

I'm always the last one on my list of people who need saving. 

I try to save others instead of saving myself first from all the hurt. 

I get too wrapped up in others to focus on my needs. 

Until one day I realized I'm the holder of my happiness. 

I'm the only one who can control my story. 

It's not up to others anymore to prove it to me that they'll be there, 

Now its up to me and just me to figure out where this life will take me. 

I'm the only one who can hold myself back now, 

I refuse to allow my happiness to be in anybodies hands besides my own. 

It's my time to shine as bright as the stars above. 

To shout from the roof top that I will be somebody! 

Reviews

[Arriam]

You go from such a low place to a movingly inspirational ending. I can relate, and even if I couldn't, I'd still be completely sucked in by this. Remarkable job!
Arriam

[Emily]

Thank you so much!

[barleygirl]

I love the point of view you are expressing here. It's a very healthy step toward self-reliance. I have learned in my long life that it's best to be self-reliant first & then the friendships that are built on top of that foundation are just better all around, becuz of my self-reliance. People don't do this & that to me. I'm treated the way I allow people to treat me. It's my choice & I need to stand up for myself. I had to learn these lessons you share & many more. I'm proud of you for reaching much mastery of life! And your message is clear, strong, & well-expressed with a ton of self-honesty which I love (((HUGS))) fondly, Margie