Pickle on the page 1

I was thumbing through folders when I ran into this story poem song thing I made so long ago Thought I would upload maybe someone will find it motivating. It is more of a song but read as a poem.

Pickle on the page again

playing with fire 

while losing the desire

friends family and all of the people of the world 

they all got a problem

a problem with me

im dark

im sad

im depressed

im angry

these are not what i want

its the cards im dealt

you dont get to redeal em you just gotta play em

destroy your realities

destroy yourself

nobody wants what you truly are

just lie to there face and tell them its fine

they will likely disapear if you tell them the truth

satan knocked on my door and i let him in

i let him steal my soul

and devour my heart

i tried to play nice but i wasnt allowed

better to be bitter then being ignored

dont let him leave oh no 

just keep it all calm and steady

keep yourself in a cage and never leave

dont be yourself or they will leave

just stay weak and keep being pushed around

sometimes i wonder why im living

i see life so clear some days

then all i see is anger and fear

somebody must wreck what is all so pure

happiness must not be shown must stay angry that is the way i was shown

keep to yourself and never be something fancy

stay in the root and live just like everyone else is

i mean it is working for them so why change it

why be something new when being old seems so brand new

dont let him leave oh no 

just keep it all calm and steady

keep yourself in a cage and never leave

dont be yourself or they will leave

just stay weak and keep being pushed around

Today i woke up and decided i wanted to change

i told satan to go and tried to dig my way out of this hole

but i only lasted 3 short hours

when someone came along and shoved me into the dirt and told me im nothing

man im tired of being treated like nothing

its hard to leave the situations your in

becuase

so many people dont like change

but its time to move and make new foot prints

you never know when someone is following you so dont lead them to that darkness

sometimes more then ever i cant ever leave there and im stuck here with nodda

I let him leave oh yeah

I am no longer calm or steady

I just keep moving by myself

life seems worse but we will see

come on guys we all need to change our focus instead of honing in on what we cant do

look at what we did do what we can do and what we might do

some day we may see something more then a blank page

maybe that page will be a colorful picture 

or maybe your still in the outline process

either way you need to flesh it out

show the pain your coming out

you need to prove your the best and make people move

be something like no one else and then show them how to be

live life like you have never seen

make dreams come true and maybe some day someone will follow you

Author's Note

I am not about to go changing grammar spelling or punctuation.