Tarzan & Jane

Will you remember tonight?

Do you remember that night?

When the night was all yours,

but the bed was mine.

We were already a bottle deep but I could've drank you like wine.

Let's be fair,

In my experience it is easier to smile when I wake up beside you.

You slept over twice - 

On the third day, without you to hold,

I ground my teeth into headaches.

EARLIER,

We lay in bed

I kiss your neck - 

You tell me all I ever think about is sex.

But you...

But all I ever think about is you.

But do not get conceited,

you do not cross my mind...

Who am I kidding,

it's more like playing in traffic.

You are reckless.

Risky.

Dangerous to my health like the caffeine and cigarettes that keep my blood pumping.

Because I need you.

I need you like the california coast needs anxiety medication.

Like I need anxiety medication.

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I wanna see you.

I look out my window and unspecific streetlights dot the horizon - 

I would take off my sunglasses just to see your stars.

I wanna hold you.

Even though sometimes,

if only for the sake of self preservation,

I wish I could feel your touch without you touching my feelings.

F**K...

I wanna run your phone bill up - 

And I wanna wipe it clean - 

And I wanna do it again.

We don't even have to talk.

I love hearing your voice

but it'd be enough just having you in my ear when you aren't here.

I get it though.

I know this is confusing,

and overwhelming and overbearing. 

But, ultimately, that's me.

Cause I tarzan and you jane.

My words,

Even this poem, prove - 

Even with time.

Even when I try.

I'm just a monkey,

Throwing s**t at a butterfly.