Scared to be Lonely

loneliness was an unsatisfied thirst for illusion - kobe abe

i have a constant fear that

the one's i cherish will leave me.

i am scared to be lonely.

i cant express my love, my anger, 

my insecurities.

there is this rampart fortifying 

 all my feelings,emotions.

i act normal 

but then the silent screams ,

make my head burst.

i want to cry, i desperately want to,

but my tears cant get past through this numbness.

it feels like my identity is locked in the cage of

utter darkness.

and just when i try to open up 

this cruel world turns a deaf ear.

and then the rampart keeps getting higher.

Author's Note

do share your opinion and advise for improvement

Reviews

[Pragati Chaudhary]

This happens with me even I want to express but sometimes I just can't.
and then I want to cry but I just can't.
I love to be alone and then slowly all the pain seeps in and it's what a normal person calls "Normal" it is.
It's dry/deaf & dead inside. hollow and barren sometimes.
don't know what'll be

[pinhead07]

This fear is justified, I know for a fact that isolation is the quickest route to madness. This inability to express one's self leads to people misunderstanding one more often than not, which leads to self isolation, it becomes the new normal, people then turning a deaf ear to you doesn't help either, at all. One somehow needs to break out of this shell. I know I haven't, still it's what needs to be done. This is really well written. Kudos. :)

[Davidgeo]

Your fear is justified; and it only gets more so as time passes.

The path of self induced loneliness is pretty much the worst way to handle it though. From experience I know this... it only gets harder and doing it alone multiplies the difficulty.

None the less you write a nice poem. Share that skill with as many people as you can while you can.

[Malvika]

Thank-you for sharing your opinion!

[Haneefah]

Mallishka, this piece is awesome it is so emotional and we'll written

[Govind singh]

I have a poem with similar message but ur is amazing!!loved it.

[Malvika]

Thank you that's so sweet :)

[Brandon Wile]

The feeling of absolute loneliness and isolation is something everyone has to deal with at some point, this piece really captures the impact of that feeling well. Thank you for sharing this piece it was really enjoyable.

[Malvika]

Thank you so much !

[Cassidy14]

Beautifully written. So peaceful and elegant, yet relatable for some. great job here!

[Malvika]

Thank you for your kind word :)

[SleeplessVolcano]

The fear of loneliness....you've expressed it so well.

In this line
"but my tears cant get past through this numbness"
I would suggest to remove either "past" or "through" but both is a bit of a duplication. "Through" seems more substantial, because it suggests a deeper process before actually getting to the other side of numbness...

Brilliant poetry.

[Malvika]

Thank you for your kind word and I surely will make the suggested changes :)

[UN]

A cruel world indeed. You've perfectly summed up feelings of depression, anxiety, anguish. Your creative use of word placement is well received. You are talented and expressive.

[Malvika]

Thank you for those kind words :)

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A plight shared by many, however the lonely will always find a way to crave others, well done, good read.

[Malvika]

thank you!