i have feelings...

this is about my past..and how i overcame the horible times!

okay who ever reads this know my past now. its a tail between a try hard girl and the evil of phs(pecos high school). i went to school everyday knowing that i had no friends and the friends that i did have just were there cause they felt sorry for me. 4th grade was the last year i had a true friend, once that ended kids teased...i was skinny, white, taller then everybody i hated myself! 5th grade i let the popular girl coppy off of me..so maybe she would be my friend. that didnt happen! boys would make me cry because of what i were(which wasnt the best). 6th grade...a girl made me cry cause i were a shirt that had a built in braw and during gym had to change and she made fun of me for not haveing one by saying "well she doesnt even need one"! it sucked...okay 7th was poor, and if you were you were made fun of. if you didnt have the nice clothes you stunk..and yes i was called stinky. 8th was the worst year ever! new girls moved to town..and 2 of the cool kids came to me and said.."amanda you cant be there friends, cuz were gonna make them cool" it sucked too! 9th actually was pretty good had a group..lol we even had a burn book, yah we thought were tough, but i was wrong! my group put me in that book what a surprize they werent my friends! 10th well a turning point...new group heh. well this group was darker they called me a poser! and i was a bad friend cuz i didnt trust anybody after all! so i took her bf away from her and left both! (wrong choise) should of been a friend! i was alone again. okay 11th best year! heh moved out of pecos to od! knowbody knew me. a new start! it was great had friends and even a bf that didnt hide me!!!12th just rolled by and graduated! NOW! a couple of friends but they dont fit! i want a group so we can all hang out and have fun! i just want to have fun..but have to include my hubby! im still shy and have feelings, if i give you a bad look..thats just how my face is lol, im loud when i know you ill make you laugh! just be nice!

 

 

luckly these ppl most of them our my friends again! but are far away.

Author's Note

ignore grammar, and im shy.

Reviews

[Shellie]

I like the honesty in this, and the humourous effect you wrote with! Is it all true? even though i dont know you i could feel my blood boiling at parts like when the 'cool' kid came up to you and said u couldnt be their friend. GRRRR. let me tell u this, all the 'cool' kids in my school have turned out to be a pack of losers!!!! i swear to god. a fella came up to me in skool an sez did u no ur my cousin? i sd i kinda thought it but wasnt sure and my 'friend' said 'shur how can she be related to ya, she's fostered. and i replied 'well in that case im not related to u either [been with my family since i was 10 days old 24 years ago] and now se'd often say hi cuz ani say'here im only fostered' the satisfaction!!!!!! so this piece reminds me of a get back and girl, youll prob be the most successful in the end!!!!

[Crazy Cat Man]

good story. nothing is forever and Schools are a weird situation becuz you are stuck with the same people for a number of years. after school is over ....everything changes just dont let it change u to a bitter person and you'll soon make ever lasting friends. :)

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

This reminds me of my own troubles as a child when two girls threatened to cut off my hair at summer camp because one of them liked the guy who liked me. Or the kids who tripped me on the school but and called me 'Barbie' because I had long hair. It is rough being a kid and you capture it well. Thank you for sharing this with me. What does not kill you makes you stronger they say and you have certainly run the course so you must be a strong-willed woman now who can certainly hold her own - count on that.
Much Love and Light,
Siddartha

[Wildecat]

This is a well written story, thanks for sharing.