Listen

I was drunk and just wrote down what was on my mind tbf.

No ones here 

when I've got a lot to say 

Every night I've been looking for that next high 

I've been this way since last May 

but I say 'enough is enough' 

Today is going to be my day 

B.o.B said that we could pretend air planes were like shooting stars 

but I knew those wishes would never get me far

So I'm writing what I'm thinking 

Maybe this will be some kind of start 

Speaking from experience, I come from nothing, I have nothing 

To sum it up, I am nothing 

but that wont stop me from becoming something

Sick and tired of this anxiety, depression, it messing with my head 

Will someone, please, just put me to bed 

I've been smoking that herb and drinking liquor 

It's just an illusion that is makes you feel better 

I'm writing this now hoping that someone will hear and understand me 

If you're gonna let me down 

then just leave me be 

Cos I don't know how much more I can handle 

I never have anything positive to say about how I feel 

My grandparents pray and light a candle for me 

I want to tell you I love you, but I just can't 

You know how to use me 

You pull at my strings just for a thrill 

I've got nothing left to say

I'll be in the back, swallowing another pill. 

Reviews

[Lorne Blaine]

I know, from what you wrote here, what you're going through. If you want a good advise, from someone who felt- and still do sometimes- like a joke, like he had nothing worth sharing to the world, I suggest that you never wish to become something. You should, instead, face the inevitable truth that you are. You should never think about becoming, but rather being. If you tell yourself that you have to become, then you are nothing, because you don't believe that you already are someone. It's not easy, trusts me, I know, but, the only way to feel like you are someone or have something is by telling yourself that you are someone and that you have things worth sharing to others.

[emmajoy]

'To sum it up, I am nothing -- -- but that wont stop me from becoming something -- -- Sick and tired of this anxiety, depression, it messing with my head '

When someone can be as honest with Self and write like you have, there's a space in our world just waiting, ready to nudge you into remembering what can be.. not merely what can't be.