An Unofficial Passage From The Unofficial Book Of Jess

An Unofficial Passage From The Unofficial Book Of Jess

A Poem by Jekyll 'n Hyde

Am I a hero for battling depression?
Or am I a coward for attempting suicide?
Neither.
I am a deceitful, wicked villain.

I have stolen my brother's cries,
Lied to my mother's face.
I gave in to all my fears,
I am a disgrace.

Yes, I am a villain.
I could've lost everything I was given.
But I didn't care.
I gave in to the statistics.

My parents call it a miracle.
I only wish they'd be realistic.
Don't get me wrong;
I appreciate the second chance.

But, God, are you not sick of our twisted dance?
Are you not sick of saving someone who doesn't deserve to be saved?
I am a wretched villain
Who continues to misbehave.

Why not end my miserable existence?
If only to prove to your believers that there is a God,
Why use me?
I belong in Hell, don't you see?

I wrenched tears from my brother's eyes.
I clenched my mother's heart in my hand.
I destroy lives, God!
Why must you let my family believe in these lies?

I am not a miracle!
I reject your gift of salvation!
Not because I am ungrateful,
But simply because I do not deserve it!

There are plenty of people in every nation for you to "save"
No, I am the villain,
And I will continue to misbehave.
I will wave to my family as they enter the Gates of Heaven,
Just as I am cast into Hell.


© 2017 Jekyll 'n Hyde



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not really a review but my reply...
the earth is cold my soul ive sold put my feelings on complete hold for i once was caring and oh so daring now its ike ive lost my bearing i hate the sun and the sky cause all i want to do is cry

Posted 2 Weeks Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I was a mental health worker for 27 years. One of the symptoms of depressions is low self esteem and you are showing it in abundance. I imagine you are listening to the ongoing reruns of negative thoughts on a continuous basis. You can't do that if you want to live. Sooner or later you are going to convince yourself of the rightness of self destruction. Stop entertaining that pseudoreligious claptrap about hellfire and damnation. Above all, take your medication!













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Posted 2 Months Ago


0 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Carol Cashes

2 Months Ago

When you know what you are - be the best at it and respect always comes from the smart people who ar.. read more
Jekyll 'n Hyde

2 Months Ago

I could really learn a lot of things from you
Carol Cashes

2 Months Ago

When I first joined the site, I wrote a piece called Know Me. You read that and you'll understand m.. read more
I'm sure you meant this quite seriously, but girl! Own It! If you have to be a "villian" to stay alive, be a bad-a*s b***h. Your family obviously understands that those who act the least lovable, need love the most.

Posted 2 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Jekyll 'n Hyde

2 Months Ago

Lol, thank you. I think I may have something draw for this.

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Jekyll 'n Hyde
Jekyll 'n Hyde

Corcoran, CA



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Hey, my name's Maryjessie, and I'm 20 years old. There's not much to be said about me except that I have a few mental health issues. Sorry if that scares you away, but I figured I should just be hones.. more..

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