Catharsis

Written after seeing the movie "All About My Mother."

I still remember his face in the rain

That image still drives me insane!

He fell beneath the rubber wheels

His mother screaming ear piercing sqeals,

Weeping for her fallen son

Nothing to do, what's done is done.

 

Damn that film that made me feel

These feeling that feel so unreal.

What would I do if I lost a son?

The will to live, I would have none!

Could I go on with that kind of pain?

What wouldn't kill me'd make me insane!

 

And these horrid thoughts won't go away,

Can't concentrate with my thoughts astray!

Tears well up and I hide my face,

Afraid of feeling so disgraced.

I think of death, how wretched he is,

For taking things that aren't his!

 

And this could happen any time.

My child could be in his prime,

Or maybe a mere five year old,

When all these events would unfold,

And I could lose him, just like that,

Emptiness where he once sat.

 

And I've thought about my own death too,

A reality that's ever-true.

I've even picked out my funeral song,

For me a tear-fest seven minutes long.

How long do I have left, I think.

God knows I may be at death's brink!

 

And what would they feel, family, friends,

And those with whom I've never made amends?

What would they feel in this time so bleak?

The same things that I've felt all week?

It's selfish to die for one's own pain,

Their close ones will suffer, that's all one will gain.

 

In that movie, I'm glad it wasn't me 

That had to die so suddenly

And I'm glad I have no son to lose

No place yet for my soul to bruise

 

There's a saying I'd like to add:

"In times of peace, sons bury their dads

But in times of war, dads bury their sons"

Nothing to do, what's done is done.

Max Levites - 12/22/09

Reviews

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A great tribute to a most hard film, paled and frozen in tine no doubt, well done

[Ruth]

Well, I have never seen the film, but the poem stands on its own love! Amazing writing :)
Really thought provoking...
Excellent xx