self cognitive absorption

gulp on my empty drink
i'm trying to dust off
but i'm still
on the brink of it

the epitome of the beast
is as it is
violent
i feel reminded
of what blights my sides
in silent self containment
i drink my coffee to pretend i'm trying to keep myself awake
i dress all in black to camouflage away
from the fact that i'm about to fade away
i suck on my own blood
to vampirize off the greatest thoughts of inner patience
the innovation

i recognize the image of a stranger creature
inside the emptier shell
i give birth to my death
and closure to the bear

static noise in my reflection