You Cut Off My Digits And I Can No Longer Play

Meeting of Minds

01/15/18

To meet you in your perceptual reality… To be able to shed light into your darkness… while my perceptual reality has been difficult enough… And yours is even more scary… Can I tread there?... And if so, make things grow?...

I see the many ways it could and likely would go... as I put myself in your war and you perceive me as foe rather than friend...foe not being the one to hold the gun, though you have that enemy too; foe not even being the one who raped and molested you, as you have that experience also - but the one(s) who created the parallel reality for you...the one(s) who looked on and seemed to see nothing wrong/saw something wrong, overlooked and/or pretended everything was alright. Who more than pretended everything was alright, but actually shoved it down your throat. This is the enemy you see when you look at me.

You take me as not validating your reality. Which reality? I am the one validating the truth behind your words, actions, and reactions. You have slipped into the role of your own invalidator. You now tell yourself everything is alright, and how dare I come along and show you yourself again? (When you've done just fine denying that self for so long!) That self can be intimate, acknowledge need, and acknowledge the legitimate beyond tangible needs of others. Suffering alone has seemed so much more ideal - that you've come to metaphorically cut off my fingers for reaching for you.I reach for the you behind the you. You don't believe that I see, sense, or feel you. When in reality, I see, sense, feel both of these you(s).

Author's Note

Art: Shadow Guildmage illustration by Mike Kimble as used by Wizards of the Coast, Inc. 1996

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

Very well done! This is very complex and I found it hard work to get it all - and I'm not sure that I have. It's true that we are not just one person - there are multiple versions of each of us. Both in our own conscious and subconscious view and then in the perceptions of others. I'm not quite sure if you are trying to say a bit more than this. Perhaps expanding it to develop and give more detail might help. It is well written and very intriguing.
I have tried to write about some of these things but more through a storytelling format. You might like to read my short story 'egg' if you have time.
Regards
Alan