I am sorry

Yesterday was just a bad day and it ended on a bad note after I was unable to communicate clearly, and somehow ended up offending a man that is 20 years my senior.

I am sorry,

is this suffice, for me to say?

I never meant any harm and 

yet somehow I was.

Pardon if my tactic was offensive,

my social skills are not the best.

More so when asking for a favor,

I do my best to do it, humbly.

Yet, somehow, this time, it went wrong.

And it backfired on me, instead.

I tried my best to let you know

how sorry I truly was yet,

you simply walked away and 

left me there.

I do not consider you a friend, more so

a colleague you are, and since you

are older than my own self,

I do my best to show you respect.

I still am not sure, how it all went

wrong, but in the end, I was left

all broken down, full of guilt,

yet not knowing, what went 

wrong.  And so I shed some tears,

and you said, to stop being 

over dramatic, but if you only 

knew, the tears were not because

of you, or the situation that transpired.

It was just a burden that weighed me down,

until I could no longer hold it back

and so the tears fell, and I wept

with my heart and soul.

Yet, you have no clue and now 

you act as if I somehow wronged you,

and are all haughty and might.

If you could only see, what is 

in my heart, perhaps you would

understand, but I am not sure.

So, once again, I am sorry,

for having offended you in

any way, and I hope some day

you find it in yourself

to forgive this foolish soul

of mine.

Reviews

[Carol Cashes]

Okay, Marie. I don't know what happened, but just the way you described his response tells me that this is an arrogant and insensitive asshat. A smart man can sense or figure out that there is a bigger problem behind the tears or out-of-character behavior, and he should have asked you what was really wrong, found someone that he felt could handle the situation if he was not mentally/emotionally equipped, or sent you home for the day to collect yourself. Don't be apologizing to someone who, based on what you've written, was acting like your Father. If he out-ranks you (job title/chain of command), and you've already said he's older, then he should know better than to dismiss someone who is in obvious distress. Do you cry at work every day? If not, then he should recognize when someone is over-stressed and act accordingly. If this is not your normal behaviour, the fault lies with him. HOWEVER, if you are crying every day at work - then something big is wrong...not just the job and only you know what that is. Alls I'm sayin' is you've admitted you carry the shame and guilt that belongs entirely to your Father - are you giving this other man the same "power" over you? Email me if you need to, and we'll talk this out.

[Maria]

Its ok Carol, but thanks, I thank you for your stance. In the end, the guy was a jerk, thing is I was just a total wreck, after holding onto many things that week, and when he had his own meltdown, my own dam broke, and so he took it as my being dramatic, when it simply was more than one emotion. In the end, I did talk to someone and they talked to him, and for now am simply staying clear away from him, and he was told to not make a bigger deal in front of our collages and got a warning himself. As for now this is the best job I can have and next year in June will be moving out to Texas. So for now will put up with this job, and once I move on out, than will definitely be changing the type of Job I get on over there in Texas.

[Tony Jordan]

I was always taught to repesct elders. Not to speak to them until spoken to and to leave the room when adults were speaking. As if age brought with it an automatic 'do what you like' card.