So you see the way I feel it

When I speak of you

I tell them of dreams

The you I wish I knew

Here. Today

You were frail and I was scared

Hiding behind see-through facades

Pointless and comforting

 

I’m still curious

How exactly do they expect me

To live without your voice

I knew it well, the sound of love

Please don’t ask me to describe it

I’m afraid they’ll see

I might have forgotten

Let it be my secret

My private shame

 

“Mummy please! I love you”

As if that would keep you here

I have no way of knowing

I wasn’t there

I know you loved me

Did you?

I’ll die wondering, regretting  

It’s mine to keep, a souvenir

So they know you’re missed

 

I walked backwards in circles for you

Maybe God would be kind

Reward my dizziness

Stop time. Take me back

I wouldn’t stay long

I’d hold your hand

Maybe if I was brave

I’d tell you we’d be fine

Without tears

You’d believe me, for my sake

 

Breathe deep until the air around us

Wasn’t enough to keep your heart beating

Peace would kiss your eyelids

Telling you to let go

Telling me to do the same

 

Miracles are for the rarest occasions

We aren’t so lucky

Do you know that I loved you?

Everything good in me

Is because you lived and loved me

Beautiful and perfect

Even your flaws glowed

I saw that, I won’t forget

Author's Note

I wrote this for my mother…26th of October was our birthday, she always said I was the best birthday gift she had and would ever have…she was mine best birthday gift too, even more so! In honour of my mummy and the biggest heart I ever knew!

Reviews

[Faffy]

there is are words to describe how much emotion there is in here. the amount of meaning and emotion you pack into every single word is amazing
"I walked backwards in circles for you
Maybe God would be kind
Reward my dizziness
Stop time. Take me back
I wouldn’t stay long
I’d hold your hand
Maybe if I was brave
I’d tell you we’d be fine
Without tears
You’d believe me, for my sake"

these were my favorite lines (they were hard to pick =P ) i love them because it was the turning point for me they actually set me in a mood which was both creepy and beautiful to be able to feel somewhat how you felt.

amaaaazingly well written!

if you ever stop writing, sleep with one eye open =P

-roshan

[Mia]

What do I even say to that!!! Wow :D I'm speechless...just wow!

[toritto]

Beautifully done Mia. I too love the lines Roshan picked out.

Regards

[larryb]

What a GREAT write..so heartfelt and emotional ...I dont know anything about you but you have amazing talent :)

[Mia]

Hello...thanks for stopping by! I'm glad you liked it and I am touched by your kindness. Thank you very much!!

[hak16]

It's wonderful! :-)

[Mia]

Thank you!! :)

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

The uncertainty of our feelings comes from the unstableness of our emotions... it seems he older we get the more we question rather then figuring it out.

[Mia]

It's a frustrating thing!! Comforting that I am not the only one.

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

Far from the only one, it is human nature... those that don't are the minority.

[Mia]

Or liars!

[The Rock And Roll Cowboy(REBEL WITH A CAUSE)]

Very true :)

[Leslie Philibert]

A strong poem, full of emotion, well written

[Mia]

Thank you Leslie!

[emmajoy]

Beautifully written, beautifully sad. Words that speak more than space, Superb and more, Mia, dear friend.

[Mia]

Wonderful you! Thank you Emma

[An owl on the moon]

Such a beautiful, bittersweet remembrance... the longing for what could have been... the wonders in what love lived then... And your last lines? So powerfully poignant... perfection even in flawed humanity. Amazing poem.

[Mia]

Craig :) thank you for reading, this one's very special to me.

[An owl on the moon]

So appreciate you sharing your life with us in poetry, Mia...

[spiritwind]

Oh, Mia. There is so much pain in these lines. I've been here--so many of us have--but there are no words that comfort, just words to eject the pain... for a while. I wish I could say something soothing, a balm of magic words. If I ever find it, I will share. Mia, you are a treasure and I'm glad I bumped into you in this great big world. I like to read your thoughts flowing into your verses and I love to read your comments --they carry such warmth and grace.

[Mia]

You are wonderful! Thank you for allowing me to share this with you!

[Patrick]

1. tingles down the spine - check
2. goosebumps on the limps - check
3. heart melted - check
4. eyes welling - check
5, tears flowing - check

sooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing simply because of its devotion

[Mia]

I'll be smiling for the rest of the evening, thank you P.J.

[Horizon K.]

That was so beautiful and touching. I had to go call my mom and then come back to this. Can we say all the things we want to say, mend all those old wounds and mistakes and misunderstandings with our loved ones before it is too late? There is so much sadness and regret in your words. I can tell this comes from a deep place. Thanks for sharing.

[Mia]

Thank you for reading it, this one means the most to me!

[Horizon K.]

My pleasure... And is that baby Mia in the pic? Adorable!

[Mia]

LOL! It is baby Mia :D thank you