Unrequited Love and Teenage Ballads (A compilation)

A compilation of poems about unrequited love and teenage hardships. Dealing with love, loss, self harm, mental illness, in a variety of poetry styles.

Today and The Sun

Today is the day the sun shines.

Rays of bright light kiss every freckle on my face,

A race to the finish line of the beauty mark on my shoulder

The rays run ravenously like wild wildebeests across the saharan plain.

Run rays run, run harder and make me feel warmer.

Missing Us (Or you)

I miss your mouth that gave me kisses

(And ground out words like rotted meat)

I miss those beautiful eyes

(That stared as you broke me down, made me weak)

I miss those millions of freckles and pale soft skin

(Skin wracked with scars that eventually matched up with mine)

I miss you

(I hate you)

I love you

(I miss you)

You complete me

(You destroyed me)

We are amazing together

(Together we are a disaster)

Missing our chemistry

(Our destructive chemistry)

An explosion

(An explosion)

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Maybe I can try harder next time.

Try harder to be myself.

I’m not afraid of judgement.

...Right?

I’m not afraid of being scorned or judged or blatantly insulted.

I’m not weak. I’m not going to break.

I’m not afraid of judgement.

...Right?

I’m not different.

I’m not strange.

I’m not afraid…

...Right?

Totally And Completely Wondrous Experiences of My Bedroom Walls

Pen glides on paint,

Writing profanities and common thoughts of a mentally ill teenager.

Pick pick pick

At the green

As the walls fall away

And brutally crush me

Thoughts

Multiple Thoughts coming at once

And breaking me down from the Inside.

Thoughts about Now and Then

About the Future

About the Past.

It hurts

Remembering you

As your soul haunts my thoughts.

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Begone! O evil spirit,

For thou hast brought me great sorrow.

Sorrow whose nails dig into me

Like spears and daggers.

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Bring me back to the days

In which we laid on sunsets

And breathed clouds and fog.

Back to when each finger

On that beautiful hand

Would count stars like sheep

As you drifted away

Into a blissful sleep

With me

Curled at your side

Like the obedient hound I was.

Conversations With Wolves(?)

Chew. Chew. Chew.

Chew on my flesh and abolish my humanity.

Turn me into a creature like you.

Chew. Chew. Chew.

Let your teeth grind my bones

And your lips sip every drip of my blood.

Chew. Chew. Chew.

Is this what I wanted?

To be a creature like you?

Chew. Chew. Chew.

Vision fades along with the smile on my face.

This isn’t what I wanted.

Gulp.

To Him

I want to be an animal with you.

Gnash your teeth and tear your clothes away,

We don’t need simplistic ideas like society and humanity.

Roll in the mud with me,

Sharpen your claws on rocks and trees.

Be free

With me.

Let your coat grow out wild and crazy

So it catches on every gnarled brush me run through.

Dance on bare feet, dirty and kicking up dust.

Dance to the sounds of the forest,

From every caw to every drop of rain.

Be free

With me.

An when you’re old and sickly,

I will protect you from predators.

My mate,

My love,

Be free

With me.

An Ode to Breaths Taken

Soft panting.

Rough wheezing.

Sharp inhales.

Oh the joy I feel as I see your chest rise and fall,

Performing the simplest task man can do.

You above all others

Makes oxygen seem like the fountain of youth,

As precious as diamond.

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Blood red lips whisper sweet nothings.

Blood red nails click click click on wood.

Blood red gums bared along with sharp incisors.

Blood red blood spills to the floor.

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Blades dance along pale skin

A tango of blood and gore.

Dance little blades dance,

Make me feel whole again.

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These thoughts at night they come to me.

It’s very simple, can’t you see?

The blood red, all seeing, glaring eye,

Gazing, predicting whether you shall live or die.

We all have this eye, can’t you see?

With this eye bestowed to you and me.

MENTALLY (ch)ILL

Come put this pill on your tongue little one.

It will make you feel better.

As the bitter pill slips down your throat

Your eyes clench shut

But it’s okay.

It’s only bittersweet, can’t you see?

Get used to it, kid.

Another Poem About A Rose

You want another poem

About a rose?

One in which I describe how

Your thorns pricked my fair skin

Drawing crimson blood

That flowed in heavy drops like tears?

Maybe if you were kinder.

Maybe if you listened more.

Maybe if you yourself were actually

As beautiful as a rose

Maybe I’d consider it.

Getting That Feeling

That feeling when everything you touch feels soft.

That feeling when you feel on top of the entire world.

That feeling when you want nothing more than to feel warmth.

I gazed at you across the room and got that feeling.

Why in the world

Would you put me through that?

I barely even know you…

Why

My heart drops

When I hear your name.

I get a lump in my throat

When I see your face.

My eyes tear up

When I hear your voice.

I thought it was over.

So why is it

You still manage to find ways

To ruin my life.

You’re really making sure

I never get over you.

I don’t blame you

For hating me.

The way I left you was heartless.

I guess I’m a horrible person.

I just wish

You couldn’t hold a grudge.

Or I rather wish

You could hold a grudge on everyone

Except me.

Music

The songs that make me think of you

That play forever in my brain.

The songs that help me forget about you

Dusty and sitting on a shelf somewhere.

Sweets

Lemonheads.

Cherry pops.

Blueberry soda.

Chocolate cupcakes.

Your kisses.

I guess I don’t really

Have a sweet tooth.

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Pepper me with kisses and I’ll pepper you.

Light me on fire and watch me burn.

Out of the steaming ashes I’ll come new.

For you only I will ever yearn.

You’re a match while I’m gasoline.

Light me up like the sun.

Why on earth are you so mean,

Just watching as I come undone?

Us

What happened, to us?

We were

Strong

Brave

Beautiful.

We were a team.

At least

I think we were.

Maybe I was just wrong again.

Maybe I was just mistaken.

But you were the one that said

“I love you”

First.

Not me.

Maybe I was unsure.

Actually, no, I WAS unsure.

But you pulled me in

Seduced me with your tongue

Your words

Your looks.

And now you left me broken like a pencil

Splintered.

I can’t love anyone anymore without hurting them

I can’t touch anyone without scarring them

Or leaving a little piece of me behind.

You

Did this to me.

Why?

Another Edgy Poem About the Color Black

Black.

The deepest midnight and the earliest of morning.

Ink on parchment paper.

The only “color” I dare to wear.

The feeling I get when I see, hear, smell him.

The deepest color of my soul when I look at myself in a mirror.

Poems About Love Are Overrated

At least I think so.

Poems about heartbreak and

Unrequited love and

Pain in general

Are always just so much more detailed and descriptive.

I wonder why.

Is it because pain is just

So much clearer than pleasure?

What even is the difference between pain and pleasure?

I see none.

Because in either sense

I keep coming back for more.

Pleasure and Pain

Are intimate lovers

Whose hands are always intertwined

And whose bodies are constantly together

Pressed up against one another

Heated breaths exchanged desperately.

But in the morning they depart

Only to see one another again

The next dusk

‘Til the next dawn

And the cycle repeats

Until my body is nothing but a corpse.

Where’d You Go?

I wanted this to last,

I promise you that.

Now you won’t even return my texts

My heart hurts every time I count your freckles

My head hurts every time your soft voice pierces my eardrums

Why do you want me to be cursed with this loneliness?

This loneliness seems worse than anything I’ve ever felt.

Why are you like this?

Demons

Whisper sweet nothings as they tear out my soul

And force feed it to you.

I shouldn’t visit your Insta but

Oh God they beg

In the sweetest tones that I do so.

I see your face.

Then they really start at me.

“Ugly”

“Fat”

“Stupid”

What made these demons think

I would ever listen to anyone besides you?

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Shivers run up and down my body,

It isn’t even cold.

Sweat drips onto my furrowed brow,

It isn’t even hot.

My hands are shaky and my breath is quick,

I might be afraid.

The paintbrush gently touches down to the paper.

First line done.

About 1,000 more to go.

I sigh and place my face in my hands.

What have I gotten myself into?

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I don’t want you to tell me I’m important,

I don’t want you to tell me I’m beautiful,

I don’t want you to tell me I’m amazing,

Show me.

I don’t want to feel your lips on mine,

I don’t want to feel our hands entwined,

I don’t want to feel the breath between us,

Love me.

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Rosy lips and pale hands

Tendons and veins showing through blue

Wrap your breath around mine and show me

What you call beauty really is.

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Knot my hair in your fingers

And smash my face into the table.

Take a knife to my throat

And bleed me like the pig I am.

Tenderly whisper just one last time

As long as I hear that voice

I don’t care what you do to me.

Drown

In my tears.

Taste the salt like the ocean

Feel the warmth like the sun.

You did this

You made this.

Falling

Feel the wind on the back of my neck

The breeze kiss every imperfection of my face and body

I wish I was truly falling

But those dreams will just have to do.

Promises

Are meant to be broken.

At least you’ve showed me that.

“Promise me we’ll be together forever”

Okay.

I guess.

Of course.

Just let me talk to you and I won’t hurt you again

I promise.

Medicine

Slides down my throat.

Pills pop between my lips.

Liquid rolls down my chin.

With water or food

You choose.

What are you hiding

Trying to cover up?

Depression?

Anxiety?

Sociopathy?

Schizophrenia?

Take another pill.

Take another sip.

Take another drag.

Medicate yourself.

Get addicted.

Get worse.

Medicine.

beside you

am i better than i am without you?

do you complete me?

am i nothing without you?

yes and no.

i have to learn to live without being

beside you.

let me be(lieve)

now that you’ve shattered my heart

now that you’ve let me go.

(let me believe i have another chance)

(let me believe i’m nothing without you)

Medicine

Slides down my throat.

Pills pop between my lips.

Liquid rolls down my chin.

With water or food

You choose.

What are you hiding

Trying to cover up?

Depression?

Anxiety?

Sociopathy?

Schizophrenia?

Take another pill.

Take another sip.

Take another drag.

Medicate yourself.

Get addicted.

Get worse.

Medicine.

beside you

am i better than i am without you?

do you complete me?

am i nothing without you?

yes and no.

i have to learn to live without being

beside you.

let me be(lieve)

now that you’ve shattered my heart

now that you’ve let me go.

(let me believe i have another chance)

(let me believe i’m nothing without you)

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Cracking of knuckles echo through an empty room.

This isn’t a threat,

It’s simply ambiance.

Do these sounds

Send shivers up your spine?

D r e a m s

Falling dreams.

Lost dreams.

Drowning dreams.

Burning dreams.

Chased dreams.

Dreams about your skin on mine.

All adrenaline pumping dreams.

All slightly scary dreams.

All arguably amazing dreams.

That Feeling

You know the one.

The one where you feel your

Wrists itch

Head aches

And palms sweat.

That feeling of unrequited love.

That feeling of hopelessness

Of loss.

That feeling that

Nothing will get better

And you might as well die.

You make me feel these things

And I don’t know why.

What did I ever do to you?

Maybe It’s My Fault

I feel this way.

Maybe you didn’t do anything

Maybe this is all my doing.

Yeah.

Maybe if I just keep telling myself that...

Red

Fire.

Blood.

Lips.

Drugs.

All these colors of red cloud my brain.

Like blush on cheeks.

Like weeks and weeks of passion with no end.

The color red might as well be a friend.

Author's Note

A lot of these were written during a time of deep emotion.