Perhaps Hemingway had days like this

Perhaps Hemingway had days like this

A Poem by Kelly Scheppers

Perhaps Hemingway had days like this

 

 

How long it has been
since last I penned

a plethora of words

 

where days and weeks

neurotically merged,

leaving me without prose

or metaphor to ponder

 

Perhaps Hemingway had days like this,
repeated attempts at metered rhymes
with nothing more

than a grocery list to show for

 

with nothing more

than a double barreled shotgun

in need of cleaning.

 




© 2017 Kelly Scheppers



Author's Note

Kelly Scheppers
The last verse was written under the assumption that Hemingway’s death was accidental, caused by a shotgun discharging while being cleaned. I read that his last few years were marked by great physical and emotional suffering, as he was also treated with electroshock therapy, which instead of improving his condition, impaired his memory, making writing impossible. To no longer be able to do the one thing he loved most simply staggers the mind.

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Though quite brief, this poem gives a strong impact, especially knowing what you provided in the author's note.
This is probably the most creative and original poem I've read about writer's block. I especially enjoyed the line "a grocery list to show for" because it perfectly describes how scribbled, uninspired thoughts often look on a page. On top of that, it lead to a killer ending. Well done.

- William Liston

Posted 7 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

Thank you, Will. I found your review to be my reward!



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Though quite brief, this poem gives a strong impact, especially knowing what you provided in the author's note.
This is probably the most creative and original poem I've read about writer's block. I especially enjoyed the line "a grocery list to show for" because it perfectly describes how scribbled, uninspired thoughts often look on a page. On top of that, it lead to a killer ending. Well done.

- William Liston

Posted 7 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

Thank you, Will. I found your review to be my reward!
Hemingway is one of my favorite authors and his constant struggle with depression was something that stuck with me a long time. Your write is not only a tribute to his legacy but was penned so very elegantly, Kelly. Just love it!

Posted 7 Months Ago


Dara

7 Months Ago

Yes, I had heard about that and his death seemed at first surrounded in mystery but I guess it was t.. read more
Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

No longer able to write - it must have been maddening for him.
Dara

7 Months Ago

Yes, a terribly tragic ending for such a brilliant writer.
Is there an element of want in an accident?

love,
al

Posted 7 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

I believe it was suicide. I read that the shotgun he used was the same one he used for hunting. Pe.. read more
It is sad when a creative person can no longer be creative. But I think Life has a way of consoling souls. There can be an inward peace.
I liked your free verse poem and your use of clever wording. I hope more plethora of words come to you!

Posted 7 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

It's wonderful to reach someone new - thank you so much for visiting me today!
With Hemmingway I expect it was more. He was the right male. The male writer. So losing his creativity was like losing his manhood.
It was the same I hazard with other writers but for different reasons. To lose whatever causes your creativity....
One of my heroes is the abstract expressionist painter Mark Rothko who too died of an internal struggle. Another is the painter Arshile Gorky. Creative people like these need to work. Their reason goes when their creativity goes if that makes sense.
Which leads me onto the format of this moving and thoughtful write. There is an understanding here. An understanding that sometimes we feel sad. Sometimes, some of us are depressed and followed by the black dog. those of us understand more perhaps. And then some of us like Papa Hemmingway know what creativity is like and the price that sometimes has to be paid.
A very, very empathic write and very impressive for that.
The happy irony here is that you are doing the very thing that you say you have not done for a while.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

It is ironic, isn't it? I was overwhelmingly moved from what I read, and I knew exactly what I had .. read more
From the title to the final line, this is just amazing Kelly! I loved “with nothing more than a grocery list to show for…” I think every writer has days like this. They say there’s a connection between depression and creative genius. Not sure about that. But “cures” like chemical and shock treatment can certainly damage it. This is a heartfelt tribute to a talented man. Bravo.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

I couldn't help but feel his despair from all I read. What an incredible man he was! Thank you my.. read more
good morning Kelly! :) i was directed here to your poem having read Jacob's ..which you inspired ;) its connections like these that stretch me .. i have two related poems and Hemingway to look up and read .. the conversational style of this is easy on the mind and soul .. a personal friend who talks comfortably about goals, desires and disappointing days ... and i the reader content to listen to the words i read .. subtle rhyming and rhythm ..nice turn with your third verse .. and your closing leaves the question open as to his death .. i am off to read more about the man and see if the 6 toed cats are included in his bio .. we use to have a 7 toed cat ..each front paw and six on each back .. every one of her kittens (around 45 or so) had the same. :) very fine read for one who is in the blocked times
E.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

7 Months Ago

You will be amazed by what you read, Gene. Thank you for a most wonderful review!
' .. with nothing more .. '

That - your poem, is superb, Kelly, truly is. You've captured the essence of Hemingway's power and twist of mind when laying down mood and such.

Some people suffer for their life, others for their mind. He, that wonderful man, suffered for a well that had dried up... how desperate his last thirst. What a loss..

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

8 Months Ago

A most lovely review, Emma. It seemed the more I read, the more my heart broke for him. I deeply a.. read more
i like that ending...don't think it was accidental...but that grocery list...i can relate...right now i couldn't even write a good one of those.
when nothing is coming we feel like the pen is an empty gun---nothing in the chamber...no bullets.

j.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

8 Months Ago

You gave me a chill with the analogy of the pen being an empty gun. I can't imagine the horror he f.. read more
I found the empathetic sentiment in this heart-breaking Kelly. You obviously felt the horror (to some degree) that he must have felt and penned this with love.
Bravo Kelly.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Kelly Scheppers

8 Months Ago

I was totally absorbed by what I was reading. I'm really proud that came through...thank you, Tony!

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Kelly Scheppers

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