ChurchA Story by KateChurch She knelt down so as to
pray in an empty church smelling of its familiar incense. The church clock was
going to strike twelve announcements of the Sunday noon. She wore black and
white because it made her feel chic and smart, and she did pray because she was
brought up in a village by a strict religious family. Nevertheless, she had
never believed a single word whispered from her mouth in that church and she
had skipped many masses and many Sunday strolls towards its open doors. She pretty much
detested her name, Gabrielle, which she thought sounded a bit male and made her
facial contours rough and masculine. She put down her slim waist and rather
strong, broad shoulders to that name, too. As any other woman living in the 21st
century, she had become slightly obsessed with her appearance, especially after
turning 20. But on that Sunday noon, she forgot for a while about her
imperfections, which she had been striving to change. Gabrielle left her
home, the village called Ditchling, when she was 18 because it was high time
she were educated at some of the famous London colleges. Her family had decided
for her to be a dentist or a lawyer, for they had associated a comfortable life
with a vault of money. The last time she prayed in the Saint Margaret´s church
was before her studies commenced. 5 years passed like rainy streaks through a
gutter, and she returned home with a piece of paper announcing that Dr Gabrielle
Bloomberry was allowed to drill and fill, extract and any-other-way-the-teeth
treat. She exhaled a gloomy,
hazy cloud of air, as she rested her head against her clasped hands, and her
knees on a pew. Familiar silence encompassed her, except for the cracking of
the wooden furniture or feet shuffling of veterans and suffragettes, still trembling
with terror, fervour and ageing. Just yesterday
Gabrielle was having a bath and smoked her last cigarette when a squeaking voice
of her mum was being recorded on an answering machine. She was going to throw
it out of the window, but then had never done so. Her mum would go bonkers if
she could not leave her routine messages. The one Gabrielle overheard while
squelching in the bath like puddles in the shoe, was a bit alarming: “Gabrielle, you must
come home immediately. I have an announcement to make. I am elated, dad is...
oh well, you know him. He is, how to put it, he has had a heart attack, almost.
Hmm, almost, not really. Don´t worry. Everything´s fine, except one thing,
which I want to tell you in person. It´s Sunday tomorrow, I´m sure you can make
it tomorrow. See you soon. And call me back once you have finished your bath
and your last cigarette”. “She
surely knows where all my birth marks are”, Gabrielle spitted out a bit of
water and a rising bubble propelled by a languorous smoke reached an invisible
peak, and then slid down into the final airy burst. Even the lightest objects
on Earth will always be forced downwards by the gravitational force, and to
prove it, she tipped ash into an ashtray. She
was swaying a bit to soothe herself, and to brace herself for whatever was
going to take her by surprise. It had been five years during which she
sporadically visited her parents. She saw them in a pattern of three months for
the first 3 years of studying, but it was reduced into twice a year. Not that
she did not love her parents, and the insular village, she just grew tired of
village rumours of the retired. Being observed like the Big Brother, like the
third-eye-God-like presence was nothing she would relish. Since she was an only
child, she was overwhelmed with care, but a kind of care resembling
dictatorship. She wished to release herself from the net of commandments that
guided even a wing she made with her long, dark, dense eyelashes. Being back
home entangled her and made her as diminutive as microscopic bacteria poisoning
her feelings that chafed her mind, which she freed and healed by keeping
herself at bay. Amen.
She wetted two fingers in the holy water for the Father, the Son, the Holy
Spirit, and drew a cross from her forehead down to the sternum, from the left
shoulder to the right. Turning around, she spotted her mum, who had always
possessed an exquisite taste for fashion, wearing black and white standing next
to a hunched and somewhat dismal dad. Their faces lit up with smiles, and the
two waved at her to come out and give them a well-deserved hug. A twinge of
non-definable feeling coursed through her body as she was walking towards them.
While they were heading home, in the rhythm of kitchen cluster, in the smell of
Sunday roasts, they got small talk out of the way. Her parents exchanging
furtive glances kept her in suspense throughout lunch. Gabrielle was suffocating
on the tension which was at long last released, like a massaged muscle, when
she was delivering a piece of home-made-heavenly cake into the mouth. “Your
dad is not very happy about it, like I told you. I did not, we did not, expect
that I would get pregnant being 49 years old. But " “. “Did
you say pregnant?” Gabriella froze in motion. “Yes”
her mum looked down on her hands rubbing gently one another, interlacing
fingers. Good
news after all. She
crunched on bitterness though. She
sensed that they were concealing something from her. Nevertheless, she took it
in her stride, and came to terms with the news. Their conversation seemed to
exhaust itself, and they saw Gabrielle off leaving a qualm hanging in the air. A
baby boy was born seven months later, and Gabrielle lived in a blissful
ignorance till her mother´s death untied her father´s tongue. Her little
brother was conceived in her mum´s affair. Gabrielle
almost chocked on bitterness. © 2018 Kate |
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Added on March 30, 2018 Last Updated on April 8, 2018 AuthorKateCzech RepublicAboutI come from the Czech Republic. I've been studying English for several years (I am just about to finish my studies). I started writing "poetry" that doesn't rhyme in Czech, but one day I lapsed into E.. more..Writing
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