A LONELY ME!

AND I CLIMB UP A MOUNTAIN,

STANDING AT THE PEAK,

I LOOK BENEATH ITS ALL FADED,

AND I CANT REALLY SEE,

WHATS HIDDEN OR WHAT'S TRUE,

SOMEBODY SAVE ME,

I AM CHOKING,

THERE IS NO AIR,

NO, I DON’T TALK ABOUT OXYGEN,

BUT MY OWN SELF.

I DON’T KNOW HOW I REACHED  HERE,

BUT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO GO BACK,

I AM STUCK AND NO MORE A WANDERER,

MY ADVENTURES HAD A SLOW DEATH.

THERE ARE CLOUDS ABOVE ME,

 BUT I DONT REALLY CARE,

I THINK I HAD A ROPE WHEN I CAME,

BUT NOW I HAVE AN EMPTY HAND,

MAYBE THEY LEFT,

THEY LEFT ME AMIDST A CHAOS,

BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM,

ONE SAID I AM USED,

THE OTHER COUNTED THEM AS FRIEND,

ONE SAID THEY ARE HERE TO HEAL,

THE OTHER THEY ARE ABOUT TO BREAK,

ONE SAID THEY ARE GOING TO PAMPER YOUR THOUGHTS,

THE OTHER THEY ARE GOING TO BURN YOU IN THEM.

I THINK THE OTHER WON THIS TIME,

I WAS LIKE THAT LOVE LETTER,

THROWN INTO FIRE,

BECAUSE THERE WAS NO LOVE ANYMORE,

I WAS LIKE THAT PAINTING DESTROYED,

BECAUSE I WAS NOT PERFECT FOR THEM,

I WAS LIKE THAT PEN THROWN INTO BIN,

BECAUSE MAYBE I HAD NO INK,

I WAS LIKE THAT HAND,

THEY NO LONGER HOLD,

BECAUSE IT CANT GIVE WARMTH,

AND IS ROUGH FROM THE SORES,

OR I AM LIKE THAT BODY,

WHICH CANT FIND ITS SOUL ANYMORE.

BUT YOU KNOW THAT THERE IS ONE,

ONE ALWAYS WITH ME WHO NEVER LEAVES,

IT'S LIKE MY SHADOW,

BUT ONE WITHIN ME,

I DON’T KNOW IF YOU REALLY WANT TO MEET HIM,

I CALL HIM MY BEST FRIEND,

AND HIS NAME IS LONELINESS.

IT’S THE ONE HOLDING ME UP,

WHILE THE OTHERS TEAR ME DOWN,

HE MAKES MY PAINTING,

THE ONLY DIFFERENCE I AM ALWAYS DEAD IN THEM,

HE NURTURES MY BODY,

BUT ONLY LEAVE WITH SCARS,

HE SENDS ME A LETTER TOO,

BUT ITS ALWAYS A WARNING FOR ME TO LEAVE,

IT HAS ALMOST CAPTURED ME,

AND I GUESS ONLY 10 PERCENT LEFT,

AND WHILE I STAND AT THE PEAK AND CHOKING,

I AM PROBABLY ALREADY IN HIS HANDS,

BUT WELL HE IS MY BEST FRIEND,

AND I CALL HIM LONELINESS.