Drifting

Drifting

A Poem by Jock Engelman
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I'm back it's been a while. Drunk. depressed. Found out a friend died in gaol 3 days ago stomped, kicked and stabbed to death. He went away on a job I fucked up years ago where I got away and changed.

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Every day I sit at home alone;
Every day I smoke cones;
This fear builds behind me;
My mind screams for someone;
Yet everyday I tell myself I won;
Drifting further from society;

Lost I drift and drown;
My demons drag me down;
Holding my breath, clutching water;
The wave breaks depression settles;
In the back of my mind it heckles;
As I smoke to make myself feel better;

© 2017 Jock Engelman


Author's Note

Jock Engelman
Please note I was and am drunk as an Aussie fan be writing this.

It's time to come out of hiding and write about my problems before I can't be bothered anymore

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It's ok to be at the bottom sometimes, it's also ok to get drunk (obviously You were while writing that the reader will feel it somehow :>), to feel wrecked and frustrated, BUT your real power comes when You step out instead of drifting, to say NO instead of "come and take me", and addressing your problems to yourself with total honesty (which it seems that You do) is the first big step on the road. I won't say it would be easy, but what I will say that the the end it will worth it, You will love and be proud of yourself even more and more, and yes write on my friend.

Posted 2 Years Ago


lightsong

2 Years Ago

I saw You on the "online" page someone I didn't know before, so I came to see You, I read two poems .. read more
Jock Engelman

2 Years Ago

Add me I'll work on a short one to get the ball rolling
lightsong

2 Years Ago

balls rolling... balls rolling INK IS SPILLING lol Ok Mr. New Friend~

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Added on August 26, 2017
Last Updated on August 26, 2017
Tags: Loneliness, lost, save me, alone, the Tose kid, fear, drunken scribbles

Author

Jock Engelman
Jock Engelman

Newcastle, New South Wales, Australia



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I am a guy who has gone through a lot over the years, i have many illnesses which i manage quite well. But i am still riddled with many demons. I was bullied for many years, so now i use my years of t.. more..

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